Sunday, June 11, 2023

Walkabout Thoughts #38

My thoughts, Stream of consciousness, rough and ready, while walking off long Covid and listening to podcasts… June 6, 2023

As I'm editing this Trump has been federally indicated. Finally!

United States of America vs Donald Trump

Weather for the day… 65 degrees and nice!


Navigator poll: 65% of all Americans believe Trump committed a crime 12% from just the most before. The greatest shift came from independence and Republicans. Especially Republicans who do not identify as very conservative.

Trump ran for POTUS45 in 2016 to sell a book and disingenuously with illiberal help from Russian special ops & active measures, he won. He now expects to be running as POTUS47 in 2024 in order to help protect him from the crimes he committed during and after being POTUS45, as well as using it all as a money making machine for international dark money and money in the light of day considering things like LIV, golf, etc., for those who see that. Should he become president again it would behoove them all to treat him well, now.

 NOT this...

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We won’t see anything like this were he to become president again and after he’s no longer president. That is, if he doesn’t subvert our democracy and ferret apart an autocratically tyrannically applied autocratic playbook to destroy said democracy, and our country, and then, should he be president for life, Then later potentially who knows? Ivanka. or worse, Jared. or worse. Don Junior, or worse Eric Trump, or possibly nightmarishly worse, Barron Trump?

But this...

May be an image of text that says 'Here, you can borrow my belief in you, until you can find yours again.'

Florida's DeSantis', “Where woke goes to die“ translates clearly as “where democracy is nearly dead being pummeled to death.“

Here’s what’s funny about especially MAGA complaining about how Christian values have been removed from our schools and culture. They did that themselves. Years before Trump got on the scene. Conmen and evangelical churches did that. Evangelicalism entering our institutions of government did that in working to tear apart out culture of multinational, multicultural and multi-societal communities supported by our secular government built to support to the Constitution and those multi-theistic (or non-theistic) communities. 

A theocracy doesn’t do that, or allow for that. How does a Christian theocracy support other religions? Does it? We’ve benefited from people coming here, immigrating. being born here, and even taking key roles in our tech and society. How does a theocratic Christian government even support its own disparate branches of Christianity? Christianity which came from Judaism? What of fans of antisemitism among them? How long before they start cutting the fat off Christianity and out of government and country? How long before white, even more toxic forms of Christianity, overwhelm our government and the decent Christian community? How long before that turns into merely white Christian supremacists? How long before eugenics come back into play? How long before we are, “Nazi America“? 

How long before the powerful are merely MAGA, white Christian nationalism, white supremacy, and overwhelm all the rest? They said anti-abortion laws should be decided at the state level and then shifted to make it federal. They incrementally worked over decades to destroy our liberal democracy, which America is after all. Trying to destroy our democracy. They did it through subverting our freedom by calling for freedom, as regulated by big government, but disingenuously demanding small government. This is the new bigotry, the new fascism, new Nazism as clearly detailed in George Orwell's "1984", so many decades back. He didn’t necessarily see this coming. But he saw this as it had come to other countries. He saw this in the potential it allowed for, if we didn’t follow "our better Angels". Speculative fiction gives us warning, and should give us pause, where instead some have taken it as a roadmap to out destruction. Their "enemies". US. America. There is that toxic white Christian nationalist's "acceleration theory" that we need to bring on the end so that Jesus Christ will rise and rule for 1,000 years. Yeah people believe that bullshit.

What is what crap?

In the context of white Christian nationalism, the concept of acceleration theory is sometimes associated with the idea that societal and cultural decay is accelerating, and that it is necessary to hasten or provoke a societal collapse or confrontation in order to create conditions that would allow for the establishment of a desired white Christian nationalist order. This belief is rooted in a pessimistic view of society and a belief in the necessity of radical action to bring about a perceived restoration of power and dominance.

It's important to note that white Christian nationalism and its associated beliefs are considered fringe and extremist views held by a small minority. They are not representative of mainstream Christianity or its teachings, which emphasize love, inclusivity, and respect for all people. But MAGA doesn't care. Hate is more fun apparently.

Remember, if Trump is elected POTUS 47 he'll have only four years left, no fear of being careful for re-election, unless his previous plan is perfected and works next time around, so then he’s in for life. Even if he’s in for four years only, those are unrestrained years where he knows he can’t be elected again, again if he can’t pull off another coup. 

The Donald Trump as POTUS45 will look nothing like the Donald Trump POTUS47. Anyone who supported America against him will be in danger. Anyone, anyone at all, even those who support him now, even those who make him president again. will be dangerous and a risk. They can praise him like their religious leader, for a while, but this never ends well. And it’s incredibly easy to see how this won’t end well, following an autocratic narcissist like Donald Trump. Following a toxic defective ideology based in fascism, hate, greed and toxic capitalism. Best of luck to those who continue to support a criminal again into the presidency. You'd think the first go around would have made it all obvious. But such is the ignorance in populism.

Regardless, the fools who give support to Putin and Russia in their war against Ukraine, and having entered another country illegally, what it comes down to is there’s never ever reason to invade another country. If another country invades you, then there’s a reason to defend yourself. If they won’t stop, that may be a reason to invade them. But to just cold attack another country, there is no excuse and no argument to support that. Any who do support that are criminal, intentionally immoral and unethical in orientation, hateful by design. If not simply patently easy as a people to propagandize.

I am an "isthmus" on the island of Humanity. From time to time one of those who are an "isthmus" will break off and become an island into themself, and therein lay "The Cult of Fascism", of self-hatred turned against the Island of Humanity. A belief that follows the one or the single ideal… brittle, which is strong up to the point of breaking...by Humanity fighting back. Knowledge, experience and history, that is wisdom... applied with great effort, will win against the Grand Stupid. Against the cult of personality.

The same concept in that quote about how they came for this or that person, and yet I did nothing... until they finally came for me… The same theory Republicans are putting in place now in what their illiberal laws are doing. "We’re gonna just do this for now, and it’s harmless." And then suddenly? People are dying.

“Hate“ is a severely overused word. Much like “woke“, severely misused by the right to mean whatever they want it to mean. When you hate, it’s all encompassing and leads to a calling, it leads to ending what you hate. I never hated Donald Trump. I don’t hate anybody or anything. He can make you stupid because fear and stress make you stupid and that is what he/they feed to their mesmerized ones. 

When I started martial arts in fifth grade, I was taught when you get in a fight, and you only fight to defend, when you defend, you do it with a clear and rational mind. There’s no room for hate. There’s no room for anger. There’s only room for scientific calculation. That extends itself into the psycho-social and cultural. War is extremely complex, even on the two person level. The concept of “war” on others, politically speaking, has been dumbed down to where it has itself been weaponized.

I’ve had this blog here since about 2010. You can go back over this blog and see I am who I always have been. You can go back over my entire life and see that. What you see is what you get. Although I recognize people who read things into me may see who I am not. That’s a matter of circumstance and situation and having too little time to share. 

My older brother had his opinions over the decades. He knew a lot more about politics than me going back to the 60s, or 70s. But then he's seven years older than me. He got me thinking. Things he said kept moving around my mind over the years, though military service, through college. After I went and got a couple of degrees. after my Air Force service, University degree in psychology, and then for over ten years trying to get something going (and partying through the 80s), I finally started paying attention in the 90s. I’ve learned a lot through all that. And through all that my main focus had been the Soviet Union, their KGB and espionage tactics. What I learned through books about MI5/6, OSS/CIA, Military Intelligence and books written by retired heads of those institutions. 

I would refuse to say that I have "evolved". As I get new information, I apply it to current knowledge and increase my wisdom. For me "evolution" in that sense, indicates a lack of character, or effort. Those who that is not true for, use the word for political reasons because political discourse is simplified in so many cases. Those who digested simplified info who are simplistic themselves in their understanding remain as such. 

One has to take that kind of info and supplicate it along with other simple info to enhance it and synthesize it, into more a complex understanding. Kind of like unzipping a zipfile...informationwise, but needing to go to other files to complete the target file (info). yeah, it's problematic, even more so if you don't know how to fit the puzzle pieces together. That's how you get some fool with an assault rifle attacking a pizze shop with no basement because there's kidnapped kids in the...basement.

Regarding Nikki Haley‘s ridiculous comment that a third of teen girls have contemplated suicide over trans issues, is obviously utter right wing bullshit. She also said trans communities are pushing their beliefs on others. Right, and gays are "grooming" your kids. It's stupid.

You know what’s wrong with that statement? Others should be learning about those minorities who are being abused, going through a living hell, and find those things out for themselves rather than espousing blame and hate. They should be saying healing not hateful things, supporting those people who are living tough lives. Because that is being humane. Which clearly points out Nikki Haley being disingenuous if not simply massively ill informed. Republicans anti-LGBTQ+ are simply not humane people, or perhaps you can just say they’re not knowledgeable, ignorant for believing foolish information.

When you put that another way, if you’re not ever championing something that challenges your beliefs, you’re probably being bigoted, enjoying having low information. if not wallowing in low empathy. All my life, even as a little kid I supported what I saw was right. I pushed back against what I saw was wrong. It literally got my ass beat in grade school multiple times, even in junior high. Scared? Yeah. Many times, but that’s what courage is, right? Doing what's right no matter how scared you are. 

But if everything you believe is 100% correct and you’re not ever wrong about anything (and I agree, I always want to be right. but I also want to be correct, even more so), no one is always 100% right. Because we’re human. Dare to be wrong if it leans to the side of compassion against the group. When many are harming one, consider if you're on the side of what is right and not just what is Rightwing. Even if we’re a computer or an AI, we can be wrong. Even those at this time in history can “hallucinate“, when they don’t know the answer. Because they’re designed to please. And then they’re the problem. We’re a tribal species. And we will at times do for the group over ourselves, or the one. even when we should know what is right and stand against that group. That's evolution. Standing outside the cohesion to point out the better way.

Kevin McCarthy on the debt ceiling and threatening Biden and Democrats with it? He sees the Democrats desires as "rape". He saw the debt ceiling as a cocked gun. So his statement is something like "if you rape  my "wife" (America), I’ll blow MY brains out. When in reality, his “wife” (which again is America in his tiny brain) she left him a long time ago. And Biden and the Democrats are who she now wants to be with. Which is the majority of Americans. And his shooting himself in the head, that’s him thinking he’s America. Yeah I never made any sense to me either. But it's that illogical.

If Trump were to win the 2024 election that wouldn’t be historical, and it wouldn’t be unique. Maybe in American history in someways. But in the history of Trump, it’s exactly what he’s always done. Surround himself with smarter people, although not what we’re seeing in a long time now. His committing crimes  they’re attached to, forcing them, when he fails once again… to do everything in their power, even if some of them go to prison, or even die off, all forcing him once again into failing upward... again and again and again through his (and our?) entire lifetime.

Also...Mega MAGA trickle down?

Cheers! Sláinte!

Friday, June 9, 2023

Walkabout Thoughts #37

My thoughts, Stream of consciousness, rough and ready, while walking off long Covid and listening to podcasts…

Weather for the day… nice. This blog today is from my walks over the past two weeks, about four or five walks (don't ask)..
 

A movie titled something like the Occam‘s Razor Resistance Movement

The 1995 Internet Decency Act said that social media platform, not a publisher. But as soon as, the very second they started using algorithms to feed posts, they became a publisher. HOW is that so hard to figure out? How?

Marlene Dietrich said it doesn’t take much brains to be anti-Nazi. My, wouldn’t it be nice to get about a quarter of our Americans to understand that?

Listening to Pod Save the World latest episode and they’re talking about the anti-gay laws in Uganda. And the George Bush program he set up to fight aids in Africa. They’re asking you don’t want to stop it but how do you deal with having a program like that in a country that is essentially looking to murder People? LGBTQ+? I have a suggestion and it’s ugly. Only help gay people. That means other people could get the help but they’d have to register as gay or non-hetero. And while that can be done in secret, it would do something towards altering the mindset of the citizens. And potentially offers them information. Or, since this is kind of a war… alternatively, you could help anyone, but they have to speak out against the anti-gay laws. At least just to get the medicine and help for HIV aids. Point is, somethings gotta be done. We have to stop this backsliding into medieval times by conservatives and faux religious people. I mean organized religion or any religion that is anti-human needs to be worked against. Anyway, some religions or some portions of some are, some cults of religions are.

I know I’ve said this before, but I still find it odd how many people walk along the wrong side of the street and don’t seem to understand the concept of facing traffic in order to see it coming at you.

For anyone wondering why I got so lazy about doing these blogs, my walkabout thoughts series... I’ve been busy as I said with ThrilzTV. But we’re going through a massive change, which took effect June 1, 2023. Though, that’s not all of why I’ve been slow on these blogs. I’ve been having a long Covid flareup for a few weeks. It’s not been as bad as it’s been in the past but I’ve been pretty uncomfortable with less energy and even worse, less motivation. Not to mention all my life I’ve had trouble with winter time. Was it so bad when I was younger and strong with too much energy? As I’ve gotten older winter's gotten more difficult and weather changes have always been a problem. Like my brother's migraines whenever the weather changes. He says it's the barometric pressure. I’ve historically had sinus headaches since childhood. How do I like living in Washington State? I do wish we had the same weather all year around with the occasional rain at 2 AM for an hour and the occasional clouds in daytime (living in Arizona years ago the solid blue sky got to me after a while). But the full cloud cover every day also gets old quick.
Plus after months of massive work on the streaming channel in trying to re-orient it, to get in line with this new orientation and put behind us any loss of the old one, for whatever reasons. It all comes down to success in the end.

I had a Z 28 Camaro. The first year they were made in 1967, before they were given that moniker. It was known as a RS/SS, rally sport/super sport with a 350 engine. Convertible. Loved that car. It was in late spring 1973 when I got that, right after graduating at seventeen. Replacing my boat of a car, a '67 Impala with a standard trans "three on the tree", 283 engine with spongy suspension. But it would contain myself, and all my friends to go out and party. We'd go to the backwoods of the Ft. Lewis army training base's firing range and party. Last time there we got stoned, then chased out of there by Chinook chopper, which scared the living hell out of us, and we never went back. Ever been chased by a giant dual prop Chinook helicopter just above the tree tops? Terrifying as a seventeen year old in high school ditching school for a day, in a Chevy Impala. 

 

Anyway, a fully electric SUV just drove by. What a paradigm shift in the cultural changes between my old Camaro and nowadays. My current little Honda Fit 2011... energetic little thing. But I would like an electric vehicle.

To AI. What should my response be to this tweet that I disagree with:

"What classified information or documents could Trump have given to the Saudis to have gotten his son-in-law $2 billion?"

GOP ideology: cut government to the bone. Intent: don’t let government get out of control. Function: putting things in the government, education, mental health, care, health care, to the point of dysfunctional. So which is better? Having a little fat for government to allow for a little bit more than it should be? Or cut, cut, cut allowing stupidity, ignorance, and death winning more than losing because of it? This is the same thing I’ve seen in corporations and important civic departments like policing. When you cut them to the bone, they don’t have all of the personnel and hardware they need. They don’t have all of the time to have some downtime during their job so that in this case, the police have only so many minutes to deal with anything because they have to move onto the next. Therefore, citizens don’t get serviced well or even properly. But please feel left in a position of looking bad time after time after time all because it evokes fear and police shootings that are unnecessary, and so on and so forth. When there’s enough “downtime“ in jobs, I’m not talking about sloughing off, or utterly wasting time. But human beings do need time to catch up, to decompress, sometimes throughout the day, not just do it at night on your own time, or it causing you drug or alcohol abuse, or other abuse in other ways at home. When the grass roots succeed, everybody has to change... succeeds. When the top only succeed, it does not trickle down. So Republican's orientation and conservatism in general anymore, is no longer functional or even viable, but has become toxic and leads now to insurrection. So? What’s next?

While all politicians act on the political stage, Republicans have turned into only actors on that stage. They’re not acting to get substantive work done. They’re acting to be in a play for self-aggrandizement.

Yes, God probably sent Mike Pence on his path in life. One thing is though I don’t think it’s the God he thinks it is. Same goes for the entire Republican party especially MAGA and as far as Trump, well... that’s a godless man if I’ve ever seen one and if you can’t see that, you’re pretty akin to him then, yourself.

In any situation, you want to build into and retain as many options as possible, so that when you get down to one option, it’s potentially a better than otherwise would’ve been. With the rise of autocracy around the world and the shrinking of democracy, even within democracies, which America is going through right now, with the Republican Party contingent of Trump's MAGA... Retain your options. Thus, be informed with the best factual information you can acquire. while many, especially low information, frightened conservatives… and I say low information, because the lower your information, the more the fear, the more people feed this information to conflate, and then find that in that fear, ever the more low information you’ve become… So rather than guns, information. I’m not saying guns are bad to have. I’m saying that fetishisizing them and becoming too focused on the MAGA solution to anything is dangerous. 

 If you don’t have a US passport get one. If you can, acquire a second passport from another country, certainly a good country to go to, get that too. Look into your ancestors, look into your parents and grandparents. Know a second country or a second country through which you can get to a third country (know your egress and ingress), either way, both ways, getting out of this country, if that ever becomes a necessity, know it. I don’t think it will be in my time, but then, I’m getting older.
Be aware, be somewhere between left wing “woke“ and right wing “awakened“. Know that "woke" is better than "awakened" which is akin to fascism. But also know if you have to lean towards one or the other in this case at this time, go to the left. I don’t say that because I'm "left". I say that because I’m an informed university trained researcher who bases life more in Aristotle than in divisive American politics.

When did my political/civics/world problems, education begin? I was in high school with a teacher who that last year of high school in 1972/73 taught me civics and world problems. She had been on an American delegation, who in the past had met with Chang Kai shek overseas in maybe in Taiwan. She was very aware of things. During Watergate, in early 1973 we studied what was going on in Congress and government. I graduated at 17 and moved out into my own apartment, and got a job. At 20 I entered the USAF. While in basic military training at Lackland Air Force Base, there was a bunch of guys goose-stepping around the base.

When I asked what the hell that was about, I was told half of those guys are from Iran, and half of them are from Iraq. I asked why? I was told because we sold them both the same weapons system. So they’re here to be trained. I said, what’s that about? I was told they were at war with each other. I said wait a minute. These guys are at war with each other and we sold them both a weapons system? So they can kill each other? Answer: yes. I said well capitalistically speaking that’s a toxicly brilliant deal. But morally and ethically that’s really fucked up. My T.I. just nodded agreement. 

After I graduated BMTS (basic military training squadron) I was canceled out of being in law-enforcement because of my flat feet, which should not have allowed me to get into the service. But at the AFEES station in Seattle when I was inducted, I was standing before a doctor alone in a room with my socks and underpants on. I was the only one with socks on. I asked if I should remove them. The doctor's head was down seated at a desk. He was writing in a folder and continued as he said, do you want to get in the Air Force? I said, yes. He said, then don’t take those socks off. When I told the foot doctor a month later, a Colonel, while I was in the hospital in basic training, for an appointment because I was having problems with my feet bleeding and my TI saw it... it made him angry. 

He said, well son, you’re going home. I was out? I got what we had all wanted since we were first screamed at that first night at midnight when we had arrived at the Air Base. After being there 72 hours we were put in a classroom and told that up to that point we could’ve walked off the base free and clear at any time. About 95% of my 50 man flight of airmen, actually we weren’t even considered airman yet. Not until we graduated. We had all wanted to leave. In that "72 hour briefing" we were told from that moment on, now that we know if we walk off the base or leave, it’s a federal crime. 

So in that doctor appointment, when he told me I was free and clear, I could go home, I felt a tiny bit of elation. And then I thought about all I’d been through. We were three+ weeks into a six week basic military course. And then I started to get angry. I said no! The Colonel looked at me. No? No, I said again. I said, look, you let me in (meaning the Air Force, the docs at AFEES). And now you wanna kick me out? You cut off all my hair.? 

I had gotten a haircut before I came in because I heard it was bad to show up in basic training with long hair. And the guys who still had long hair, that first day when our heads were shaved, came out from those old guys who were "barbers", alleged barbers, some of their heads were bleeding. I saw some of the barbers smacking in the guys in the head with their electric razors like they were going so fast (they were) that they "accidentally" hit the scalp too hard, but bleeding? I was glad I gotten at least somewhat of a haircut. 

That time in 1975, September 9th being the date I went in, having a shaved head was not something I wanted to go home with. So I said, it’s bad enough I can’t be in Law Enforcement, but I can’t even be in the Air Force? Understand, this is after my being a flight commander in a Civil Air Patrol squadron and in junior high doing search and rescue and my training cadets how to march and about discipline. Suddenly I realized I’m yelling at a Colonel and I am nothing. A "Slick Sleeve", no stripes on my sleeve. Slick. I looked at the Colonel, and he broke into a grin. It was obvious, he liked me. He said, OK then, tell you what. You go pick a new job that you can do with those feet and I’ll sign off on it. Now it was my turn to grin. He sent me back to my squadron where on that day we were going through the obstacle course. Well, the other guys were anyway. 

I arrived at the obstacle course, just as everybody was finishing. I saw the first guys from my squadron coming towards me. I was told along with a couple of other guys to point them to the way out. What I thought was interesting? Everyone was completely exhausted, some more than others. Some were completely wet, some covered in mud. When they saw me looking pristine and rested, only one or two of them smiled at me acknowledging I had gotten out of it. I didn’t need it though. I was probably the best guy in the squadron in an obstacle course. The year before I had tested for Tacoma Police Department. I did really poorly on the written test because I had no idea you were supposed to study for it. Buy a book. I got number 350 out of 600 candidates for an interview. Having just passed a Washington state minority law recently, all six candidates who filled those empty slots were minorities. So wasn’t going to get in either way being white. That doesn't bother me. Them's the breaks. 

But on the day of the TPD obstacle course at the Tacoma Fire Department's obstacle course site, I aced it. I had the fastest time of men or women. Men were about 10 seconds faster than women. I was about 15 seconds faster than the next fastest of the men. So it wasn’t a loss to USAF that I didn’t go on an obstacle course that day. And by that time I was in better shape than I had been.

When we all got back to the squadron, I told my TI, our technical instructor, our flight's sergeant, what the Colonel had said. The next day I was at the career counseling center across base. They directed me deep inside the one story building to a cubbyhole, open like all the cubicles were, with six chairs three facing three. A rather cute female basic trainee sat across from me, and with a chair between them, on her left was a male trainee. I tried talking to her. She just looked at me and looked away. I said something to the guy and he just nodded and said, yeah they’re not supposed to talk to us. I nodded. But ended up talking to her and got her to talk back. Reticently. 

I had to go back there a couple times that week. In the end, I selected Flight Simulator Technician, monitoring pilots in a flight simulator. What a job that would’ve been. I had to choose a back up. I didn’t see anything I liked. But I’d been skydiving, so I chose parachute rigger. I quickly lost out on the first job and so I got the second. I found out later riggers have one of the safest jobs in the Air Force. One way to put it is, the Air Force lives for its pilots who are gods. A pilot's primary mode of airlift and land is his plane. His only other and secondary option is his emergency chute. 

When anyone ever uses your chute in an emergency, if you packed it, they bring you a bottle of whiskey. The quality and quantity of which is dependent on how much they regard their own lives. I heard stories of downed pilots bringing a case of whiskey to a rigger. They tend to keep us in on base located in the back, in a protected area, even when a base is on the front lines. On the other hand, I worked with a lot of guys back in the late 70s who had been in Vietnam. 

Myself, I signed up during the Vietnam era in delayed enlistment. I had signed up in February of 1975. The war ended on April 30, 1975. I signed up Vietnam era during the war, so I got full Vietnam veteran benefits. After I got out of the service, I noticed some year later they had re-designated me as, "Post Vietnam era". I'd  had to wait until that September for a slot to open for basic training. The draft ended the year I graduated high school, 1973.

Anyway, I'd heard many stories from the Vietnam vets I worked. One was about a parachute shop in Vietnam that had so many holes in the ceiling from shrapnel that it was a misery when it rained and hard to pack chutes with all the water dripping. I also heard how sometimes they would grab somebody out of the parachute shop, as they did from any shop, give them an M 16 stick them in a foxhole outside the perimeter watching the tree line all night. This one time they took a guy from the parachute shop. He was so scared that he fired into the trees for no reason, until they brought him back never sent him out again.
 

Hey, we’re getting back to the original thought…

After I graduated BMT, because of my career code change from law-enforcement to parachute rigger, they had to cut my new orders for Rantoul, Illinois, to Chanute AFB. Anyway, it took a month. I went from basic training barracks into what they call, "casual". I was moved from the more modern giant concrete structures of 1000 man dorms, surrounded by older WWII, long house, single-story wooden dorms, to the old, two-story wooden dorms. These were located in an area between the Airman’s club, just passed the police station. There were two areas of the two-story casual dorms where people were all waiting for orders. 

One section with males was across the road from another section with all females. Your life consisted of getting up in the morning to line up and stand on the parade field where people from all over the base would come and pick people they needed for odd jobs that day. If there weren’t enough jobs, bravo! You were free for the day! That, was Casual. I had some interesting jobs. One was at OCS, Officer Training School where officers would train officers to be officers. That was at first a terrifying day. But it turned out OK, and my boss, a captain that day, was a nice guy. I wished I could go back but never did. My job that day was in a library to stack books that were on a table, by category. I couldn't believe it. They actually took the time to get a slick sleeve to do that. I got done within the hour and had the rest of the day off, I just had to wait for a ride back later in the day. It was funny as I had to salute every one I saw because they were all officers, basically. But then I realized as I walked through their center grassy area they didn't want to salute either and would turn their heads. So I effectively could walk around saluting no one.

When I didn’t have to work for the day (most days really), I could just walk around the base, go to the bowling alley or get a burger, wait for the Airman's Club to open. I could sit outside in the San Antonio sun and have a beer, and again wait until evening to go the Airman's Club, get wasted, come back, pass out into one of the double high bunk beds. So, I tended to do that. 

My first day in casual I went to the Airman's Club and came back about 12:30AM. I passed out hard in my bunk, then hour and a half later some guy woke me up. Hey you’re up. I’m up for what? Dorm guard duty, pal, you're name is on the list. You got it until 6 AM. I said, fuck you I'm going back to sleep. Sorry that’s on you man. Look, I woke you. I’m going to bed. I laid there for a few minutes grumbling, then got up, realized how drunk I still was, stumbled to the metal front double doors you could fight a battle behind, and checked that it was locked shut. Solid doors with a rectangular wire reinforced glass. I stood there for about 20 minutes, wavering, leaning against the wall with my cap on (dorm guard duty).

Finally, I remembered the Colonel foot doctor had given me a waiver. So that for the rest of basic training, I didn’t have to "walk, march, run, stand, or jump." That brought on a lot of laughs from people who read it. They still made me march. But that got me out of a few things, not that much really. Basically what it did was give me weight behind not wanting to do that could really cause me pain. I almost never used it. But it came in handy a few times. This might be one of those.

I had already done all the PT basic training running courses we had to do by then. I don't have runner's lungs. I've always wanted to be a runner but my lungs refuse. Maybe from having bronchitis so often as a kid. Maybe as some are built for running sprints, some marathons. According to my actual DNA report, I'm built for springing. 

Anyway, I went fuck this, found a chair and sat down. Wearing a cap just simulates you're carrying a gun, as when you wear a gun you also wear a cap/hat. Even inside you have your cap on. While otherwise you don’t wear your cap inside. Within about two minutes I passed out. I woke up suddenly to somebody banging on the door window, staring in the window at me, shining a flashlight in my face as I was sitting there. I looked up. Damn! 

I had flashbacks to when I was 18. I went to a party one of the guys at my insurance company threw. I bought a case of high percent beer (most beer was 3.2% back then). I invited friends who never showed up which pissed me off. So I decided to drink the whole case myself...and needless to say, I failed. When it was time to go home, I got in my car, and started it up. Being cold out I was luxuriating in the joy of its  warmth. I woke up to banging on my car window and a flashlight shining down at me. Which turned out to be two cops who were called by somebody in an apartment because my car was running for over half an hour. 

I said, no I'd only been here a few minutes. The cop then told me the story of someone calling it in and them driving over and there I was, passed out. I looked down and could see that my gas gauge had indeed gone down. But hey were nice about it and stuck me in a taxi and sent me home. Back in the barracks, after coming back to reality, he continued to bang on the door and was now yelling and swearing at me. So I got up and opened the door. He said he could smell the alcohol and continued to yell at me. I thought... I’m going to jail. He said, Airman you’re going to jail!

About that time somebody came down upstairs, in their boxer shorts. Turned out it was the dorm chief, who he was above this clown who seemed to be just a pompous asshole nobody liked who was fully of himself as he worked in the admin office. He thought he was something. They argued about it all, until I realized the dorm chief could even see he had no recourse. I was in serious trouble. I explained that no one had told me I was on dorm guard duty that night and I had gone to the airman’s club, and had came back gone to bed. If I'd just known, been told about it, I wouldn't have had drinks.

Then somebody woke me up and told me I had dorm guard duty. I told him I was drunk but he said, too bad. I knew I was still in hot water. Then I said, Well... I have a waiver. The dorm chief looked at me. Happy for recourse because I think he really wanted to help me (and couldn't stand the guy who had been yelling, AND he had woken him up), as he knew I didn’t really do anything wrong, other than having done something wrong. He said, Let me see it. I always kept it in my fatigue shirt pocket. I pulled it out and handed it to him. He read it aloud, walking, standing, running, marching waiver? So you got flat feet? He took that concept and ran with it, handing me back the waive. He looked at the other guy and chewed him out big time. He said I had a waive so sitting wasn't an issue. Being drunk was a mistaken in no one telling me I would have dorm guard duty and he should just fucking go to bed. So the guy begrudgingly went to bed. No more problems, right? He looked at me. All right. You can sit but no more passing out. Got it? I nodded. No more problems (there would not be, either). He smiled, then headed back up to bed.

That was the last time I heard about it. I got duty off at 6 AM so I didn't have to hit the parade field that day. I crashed my bunk for a while. I think the call for daily work selection was 5:30AM anyway. I walked over around lunchtime to get a burger which across from the bowling alley. I sat there at a picnic table, eating my burger, drinking a beer when a guy walked up to me. He was wearing fatigues, but not from my country. He had an accent. He asked if I mind if he sat down. No, free country. He gave me an odd look, kind of smiled, nodded and sat down.

He told me a story that, along with what my TI had told me about the Iranians and the Iraqis on base, which woke me up to some world issues I had no concept about until then. It seems he was Iraqi. He talked about how his guys didn’t want to be on base with Iranians. And vice versa as they basically hated one another. Sunnis vs Shi'a may have something to do with it. He told me about his life. How they weren’t allowed to kill one another on base. He said occasionally there’s a stabbing, but it’s never fatal, because that’s against the rules. Against the rules, he said. He said he saw a guy the other day. An Iranian. I know who he is. he said, I once watched him kill my uncle and cousins right in front of me. I could do nothing about it. I know I’m on this base, in America. and there he is. And I’m not allowed to act for my family? Even though I know what he did? He told me some other stories. I’d been walking around the base seeing these guys, who never walked alone, were always in groups of two, or more, typically three or four. Now I knew there were two groups on the base who wanted to kill each other, and were barely restrained from it. Violence could erupt at any moment. He said if that happened it was really stupid as they'd come down on them very hard. But still, it happened from time to time.

All this because we sold weapon systems to both sides of a war and them brought them both onto the same base because it was the only base they could get trained on whatever it was their country had bought from us.
America
Capitalism.
The military industrial machine. It was, bizarre. Surreal.

After a while, he got up and said it was nice talking to me. I had been interested and compassionate. I showed some humanity and was understanding just being...I don’t know, a decent human being? He was walking around alone? I watched him walk away. I finished up and dumped my trash. I stood there, wondering what the hell to do. I was bored. Day after day of casual was a killer. I thought I’d go to the bowling alley and see what there might be to do in there. I had been on a league once, I think, between fourth and fifth grade. 

My mom told me once that with my ADHD she learned when I was really young that she had to keep me busy every day to wear me out or I wouldn’t sleep. So I always doing something after school. Always taking some kind of lessons, or activities. Once I was old enough to get on my bike and ride around and leave the house all day until evening, I wore myself out on my own. There were no worries about me being kidnapped. Someone asked her that once and she just said, Kidnap HIM? Hell no. No one would. And if they did? She looked up and thought about it. I’ll give them two hours. probably before dinner time anyway, before they bring him back. Maybe offer me money to take him. Everyone laughed.
I wasn’t sure if it was funny. But I also knew if someone had tried to kidnap me and she saw it, she'd "cut a bitch." You didn't mess with my mom's kids. Obviously someone who was old school, old country and born in Brooklyn.

So I got up and walked to the steps leading up to the front door to the base bowling alley. There were maybe 12 concrete steps. As I put my foot on the bottom step, I noticed four guys talking and coming out of the bowling alley. They got to the top of the stairs, and stopped dead, I looked up and they were all looking... at first I thought at me...then realized they were all staring past me. Uneasily, I looked behind me. at three other guys. They all looked the same, from a similar region in another part of the world, But I quickly registered their uniforms were similar, but definitely not of the same countries. 

I was standing within a moment that could suddenly explode. I was standing amidst a war of two countries. The tension was surrounding me. I realized I was alone. I smiled at the guys up above me, nodded, said, excuse me, and I moved around them, off to the side and past them to the door to the bowling alley. Now in having egress from such an ugly situation, with open entry to some protection, I turned and looked at them all. I stood there, watching what might happen next. 

Eventually, the tension broke and they all begrudgingly skirted around each other, slowly, as if warriors on the battlefield avoid avoiding combat. I ducked inside. I went deeper into the bowling alley and nonchalantly observed the three who just came in behind me. I could see they were talking about what had happened and guessed about their comments of bravado or disappointment in having to follow an unfair rule. The danger was over. Though I kept an eye on the door in case those guys returned. Finally, I decided to just leave. I never let myself get caught between them again like that. Lunch that day was a curious if not one hell of an educational experience. One seldom get a history lesson and then such a practical application as example directly after.

Moving on...Turkish journalist Ece Temelkurn offers us advice about autocrats and people like Trump: "Be careful to laugh too much about it, or who you laugh around. Take him seriously." That was kind of chilling.

So America’s only been in democracy for like 50 years when we gave Black people to vote? And now Republicans have been trying to take it away through Gerrymandering, stacking the courts and voter suppression, disinformation, supporting autocrats, quashing democracy, or trying it murder it, outright. To make America great again you gotta kill off Trump and MAGA and all their other bullshit. It’s interesting just how that whole group keeps calling themselves things they’re not and then blaming others for being things they actually are.

My grandmother, my mom’s mom, used to keep a daily diary. The end of every year she said she burned it and started a new fresh one. I asked when I was younger, How could you do that? Because that’s history and something I’d love to read someday, to know your actual thoughts, and our history, long after you’re gone. She almost irritably responded saying, No. That’s just for me. As I write my thoughts out I get to know what I think.

I mention this because I think probably the most valuable thing we could do for ourselves is to keep a decent daily journal, because it makes you take the time each day, at the end of day (or the next morning), to take time for yourself. It makes you reflect on yourself, your life, your orientation, your path. When I was in psychology at Western Washington University, with Dr. Reese, he said to take your class notes but don’t transcribe everything, which is useless. Do take notes, but listen to the lecture, absorb it. 

Write the highlights, things to use as mnemonics so you are evoked to remember later when you read them. Same as with highlighting in a book. I’ve seen people who highlight just about every line in on every page. I did that in the beginning, found I was highlighting most of each paragraph and whittled that down to just a sentence or word. You really only need to mark up very little. It took practice until finally, I would just put an ink pen line next to a paragraph on a page and maybe a mark in the top corner of the page to make it easier to find. 

Anyway… take class notes. Then the very next chance you get after class, preferably, or between classes or at lunch time, scan those notes. When you get home at night before you start studying, scan those notes. Scan them the next morning. Scan them in a week. Then go over all of them in more detail at the end of each month. And all of that at the end of each school year. In that way you can retain upwards of 80% of what you learned. If you don’t do any of that, and you just take notes, which most of us do unless we’re writing a paper or studying for a test, then you can you can lose most of what you learned.

So I would suggest keeping a daily diary or a daily journal, then read it at the end of the year before you start writing in your new one. Then, for God sake, don’t burn it! Hide it away in a safe and secure place where it won't get burned if the house burns down. Leave a detailed account for your kids or your ancestors or for posterity. I cringe every time knowledge is killed. Yes, you can cause problems, it could embarrass you, it could tarnish your reputation. But if that’s what you’re worried about in life, now you know how we got to be so fucked up. Pride. Murdering history.

Oh, and when you write a journal? I’ve looked through some of my notes from the past and there’s like, I saw a movie today. How the fuck is that helpful to you, or anybody? Write things you might want to remember. Like, I saw the movie Dune today. But then put in things of interest in a more general sense of a  more philosophical sensibility. Write to make it useful not just yourself but the future. To any and all others. You don’t have to be educated to do this, you don't have to be a writer, you just have to be a human being. Anybody can write down what they did during the day and anybody can write with a thought about life.

OK, moving on...We don’t want Russians to rally around Putin or his war criminal status. I do wonder if we shouldn’t pick two or three Russians who could replace him and do something in support of them. Potentially, without anybody’s knowledge. This information about Putin‘s abuses of them set up in a way that would be credible to Russian citizens. Helping them. As Putin, as with Trump, are horrible leaders for their countries.

The Russians or Ukrainians, those intelligence and special forces who are attacking over the borders of Russia, are doing their best to hit only leadership and tactical munitions storage, but need to consider another possibility. For the Russian in being 20 years on in Putin’s autocracy, they should have more to select from than just supporting Putin. Find what is causing daily life difficulties for Russians. What Russian institutions are causing citizens difficulties? Banks? Bill collectors? Attack of those locations, too. Find the sensitive Russian pressure points that are aligned against the Russian people and alleviate those things enhancing the lives of Russian citizens. It's something to think about. Yes?

Cheers! Sláinte!

Thursday, June 8, 2023

Walkabout Thoughts #36

My thoughts, Stream of consciousness, rough and ready, while walking off long Covid and listening to podcasts…First weeks of May.

Weather for the day… nice. This blog today is from my walks over the past two weeks, about four or five walks (don't ask)..

Podcast for the day is, well, a bunch of them over two weeks. “Pod Save America“ episode, “Tucker? I Hardly Knew Her."
Then, "Your Undivided Attention" podcast,  with Tristan Harris and Aza Raskin, The Center for Humane Technology, episode: "Can we govern AI" Fascinating podcast!
And I have to also include Pod save the World (Zelansky & Russia, Pod Save the UK, The Wilderness and Lovett or leave it! Oh, and a couple of Janes on open source intelligence.

Instagram post for the day (weeks)

We need to be clear about some thing, trans and gay people, LGBTQ+ whatever, are not "breeding" (what fools call "grooming") more of the same. They're offering knowledge and insight and people are coming to their own self-actualization and personal awareness of their own situation. They are responding to what they were born with and finally see why they’re so miserable. This is a fundamental psychosocial/physiological issue. What we’re getting from the right is weird attempts at breeding authoritarians, and fascism, right-wing Christian nationalists that has spawned an anti-democracy movement. One is humane and human, while the other is authoritarian leaning towards criminality. As DHS or the FBI. It's not a secret. Only to those doing it.

As far as this right wing nonsense against Bud light, about someone who did one thing in support of humanity… I really don’t see a problem with light beer going away anyway, or a lot of that kind of corporate beer. "Rain water" one European called it at a party when I was at university. That going away? OK. I mean, some of is good… But not a lot of it (I'm also just not into lite beers). I said this before, maybe half the microbrews are actually good, but numbers among corporate beers? Way worse. Getting better over the past decade(s) though.

Fox News, with each host replacing a disgusting fired host just lowers the bar for conservatives with for worse to come...
 
Fox News: "Our promise. Forever lowering our standards to please the masses."

Meta is considering banning ads on its platforms in Europe because the laws there are so strict that because of AI and everything that's going on, they find it too hard and expensive to comply to those laws.

America is the country of patriots with about a third of whom have mistaken the word authoritarianism with patriotism. These are people who have mistaken/forsaken values and ethics and morality for populism, criminals, and apparently, rapists. Or at very least, sexual offenders.


While most Americans agree on our most important topics, about a quarter of America's deep into identity politics with Trump or some other nut, damaging issues of import. Add religion and that’s how you get to authoritarianism. Even the kind that outlawed religion. Weird? Now you're getting it. Or it's "The Handmaid‘s Tale", bastardized, for a toxic patriarchy of insanity

How is it Republicans support personal freedom of choice for carrying a gun? Regardless how out of control it is? Or support NOT getting an abortion? They demand freedom of religion (only IF it's Christianity). Then force that into our secular government. Which exists to allow us freedom of religion. But they don't want that, just freedom of THEIR religion. Of Christianity. They didn't even pick the best one. I've been through them all, or mostly. Buddhism, more correctly the "Buddha Dharma" (not the full blown ones, as humans always ruin a good thing, but a version of it), is much better in so many ways.
But when it comes to the things Republicans don’t like? Boom. Personal freedoms gone, and they're suddenly a crime!

If you walk into a voting booth, I’m sure who to vote for, if a week before election day, you still don’t know who to vote for if during that month or previous month you’re still unsure who to vote, for that’s the antithesis of patriotism of love in your country and of supporting The land and people who have supported you. If you think you have it tough is anyone coming in and wiping out your neighborhood? Stop thinking in the future for things that won’t happen. Has anyone wiped out your neighborhood? How about the neighborhood next to you? Or soldiers marching into your city or state? Stop being afraid of things that aren’t happening and won’t happen for things that might happen and it professed that they’re going to happen.

It’s odd how the people who think America is out of control, are mostly those who have forced it out of control. With white Christian nationalists being a corner tenet of that, whether they know it, or not. While many of those who do know it, praise it. Praising their religion. Praising their God. Praising their Trump. How the hell is this not obvious?

New Republican motto: "Cowardice! It immobilizes you. Seek the fear!"

Republicans: Things are shitty because Joe Biden is president.
America under Trump: Things are shitty. Oh my God, what did he do? What the fuck happened?

Today, those forces trying to destroy our Republic, our democracy, is the Republican Party:

Benjamin Franklin, one of the Founding Fathers of the United States, made the famous remark "A republic, if you can keep it" in response to a question asked by a woman named Mrs. Powell at the conclusion of the Constitutional Convention in 1787.

When asked what kind of government the framers had created, Franklin responded, "A republic, if you can keep it." His comment reflected his concern that the government they had just established, which was based on the principles of representative democracy and individual rights, would require the active participation of citizens to maintain its integrity and ensure its longevity.

Franklin understood that a republic required a virtuous and engaged citizenry to ensure that the government remained accountable to the people and protected their freedoms. He believed that if citizens became complacent or indifferent to their civic responsibilities, the republic would be in danger of being undermined by those who sought to accumulate power and control.

Thus, Franklin's statement was a warning and a call to action, urging the American people to remain vigilant and committed to their democratic ideals, and to actively work to safeguard the republic against the forces that would seek to destroy it.

And yes, we are a democracy. To deny that and say it's a "republic" is a whistle call for those who are supporting converting America into an autocracy and/or a theocracy.

Be not fooled.

Five things you can feel good about in the world today

Wreath how did economy it’s been a nightmare for decades it’s finally thriving and that’s a good thing for not just Greece and their far right who’s been profiting from it aren’t doing so well now IRAQ there’s literally been a lot of attack there and now, for the first time it seems to be slowing and the insurgency there is slowing down and become an isolated out in the mountains CHINA has been scaring the shit out of people since the balloon incident. Both inside China and out. But one of our top officials met with one of theirs in Vienna the other day and although it’s not a major breakthrough, it’s making people feel a lot more comfortable.INDIA the Hindu extremist nationalists have decided for India. I’m not quite clear on that that they may have had enough of that bullshit. Lotta noise in India for ever about Hinduism versus Islam.

The UN has recognized the Audien of Palestinians in 1848 in the area that Israel controls now. Apparently the event wasn’t great in someways, but the Palestinian issue needs to be recognized worldwide and dealt with.
Thailand, which traditionally has a somewhat autocratic government and a royal family, where you can’t speak against them or go to jail in this last election, are doing quite well towards better democracy. And apparently the military there is not as bad as the one in what are used to be Burma where they’ve either slaughtered her Force people to move out of their historical homes that is a certain culture there

What about a contest? Somehow the 50th person that signs up on thrilz gets a free year? That’s something we could transfer the Internet with give it a start date and talk about it during and after the fact. It would seem like a lot of bang for the buck. or maybe just six months and hold giving out an annual pass to anyone for someone who really does us a big favor. Like interviews us and pushes this out to a large group of people for instance

Wait! Italy lost their Parmesan reserves in an earthquake?

Find some software that will let you hook up all your social media to view analytics in one app

Regarding Mike Pence, being a godly man, and all his efforts and beliefs directed towards that goal, if he is what being a godly man is really like, it’s not a good advertisement for religion in general

What does Mike Pence need in order to win the presidential election in 2024? For his voters to not hang him. At least it would be a good starting point.

So Dianne Feinstein really needs to retire, but apparently can’t because if she does, she’ll lose her position on the committee, and Republicans will refuse to allow her replacement to take her place. Because you know Republicans in Congress if they had class, or cared about anything else like America, other than themselves, they wouldn’t be Republicans in Congress.

Remember America we said they couldn’t do worse than Dan Quayle then we got W Bush, and said we couldn’t do worse on the Republican side and got Donald Trump and said we couldn’t do worse and they propped up Herschel Walker, George Santos, who is next.? Candace actually go worse because we’re definitely seeing a path or descending slope, the garbage chute to the pits of political hell

To be clear there’s only one kind of clam chowder. I grew up with Ivers. Clam chowder is the gold standard. So there’s clam chowder New England style and clam soup Manhattan style. Just wanted to clarify that I’ve lived in both Seattle and Manhattan so I think I can speak to that fairly and evenly. I like Manhattan clam soup, but if it’s between the two it ain’t chowder

Tim Scott, black Republican, and the party of big business in the upper upper class… announcing himself as candidate for 2020 for POTUS. Who says that the radical left, which is a joke radical just look at the republican party lately look at Maga if you must instead… “Is pushing us. Into a culture of grievance rather than a culture of greatness.”

OMG give me a break! The republican party, and Donald Trump their leader is nothing but playing the victim card. Every chance they get typically when it has no meaning whatsoever. If Trump republican conservative or not the party of grievance, No one on this planet is.

And by the way, it’s quite clear he’s not really addressing the Democrats in this but Donald Trump himself and those who follow him

About right or wrong. I am what I am politically speaking, but I’ve never felt political leaving though. Some people would think I’m definitely part of them. I don’t need here to any group early although I would be labeled as such. But my orientation goes back to Aristotle I suppose. Or my philosophy prof in college or the great philosophers. Truth and honesty at all costs whenever possible. I don’t know who said that I know I just did. But the reason for my siding with one side more than the other politically anymore or lately I should say cause I hope it will change in soon, is that one side has been champion in lies disinformation of the old Soviet style, and I have blogs all about that elsewhere. I don’t care what either side thinks politically. I care what our government will do for the humanity that exists within our borders sent without. I don’t mind paying for others when we get a decent bang for the buck or when things are set up well enough that it’s not crushing me. But when “not crushing me“ means I’m not rich enough… And I have to say a hearty fuck you You selfish bastard. Since I graduated college, I knew that America’s priorities are fucked up. I just had no clue even though I warned they would if they would get this fucked up or put it on the edge of potentially falling off into even more fucked upedness

By the way, Tim Scott seems like a nice guy from all accounts, but as Tucker Carlson is out polling him when he doesn’t have a chance into that electorate doesn’t want nice guys doesn’t want decent people doesn’t want someone to work for the betterment of our country. They want me nasty asshole, and ignorant or worse.

Apparently, Tim Scott’s aide said we think that he’s such a nice guy. We won’t even have to talk about Donald Trump… Pretty much indicates how fast they’re going to lose and water obverse uninformed strategy that is.

Tim Scott said he was a virgin till 46? Still single? If that’s not a choice or whatever fine. If it’s on some weird religious thing, maybe fine, but maybe it’s a red flag too. We have a justice on Scotus and she is a red flag.

Look. I would argue we need a president, male or female, who is at least been married and had kids and live that life preferably not wealthy where they don’t have to live the way most Americans do. We need someone not that we can relate to (obviously that’s a requirement to get elected however, maybe sadly ) but who can relate to us.

“I do think that this republican party is uniquely dangerous, and not interested in governing.” Senator Brian Schatz.

I agree. We have an incredibly stupid way of choosing president. I’ve spoken on this before. Do you go to engineer for a root canal? Airline pilot for an appendectomy? Or a rock musician for your commercial jet pilot? Granted, some of them are flat rated. Not talking about those guys at all. when you have to be educated to be in a highly technical field, you get educated in that not just in general politics. I guess we can’t have a college degree in becoming president or better being president. And Joe Biden is the most experienced president in the history of America. I’m just saying the fact that is Donald Trump become president or for that matter and George W. Bush… Give me a fucking break.

Apparently a Trump aid said Tim Scott, somebody you don’t have to write nice guy at the top of the piece of paper. Whatever. Better a nice guy who’s dumb when a Trump is an idiot and mean. However, Scott running for president. Does mean he’ll be distracted from bullshit. He says & does in Congress.

“Ron DeSantis makes people feel like their needs are met, Donald Trump makes people feel like they have no need."

America desperately needs two things right now. One for someone to beat Donald Trump in the primary. Two, we need someone who’s easier to beat in the national election.

Star Trek "holodecks" create their environment. I would assume in discrete slices like a movie film or like a video tape I suppose or digital whatever however, they figured out to do it it would work potentially, if you’re in that universe. Some people have said that software like ChatGBT  just serially adds the next word that fits. Damn good guess on the next word if so. One of these days we’ll be able to sit down and tell the TV not what channel, streamer, show, or movie, rather it will show us the story we ask for that we want to see, spontaneously creating it as we watch it. 
 
If it’s good, we can save it for later to rewatch or show our friends and family. In this case, I don’t know that it would kill the video industry. You’ll still have favorite movies, stars or actors, though they too could be spontaneously created while vacationing at a resort while people watch movies they have never heard of. It may all in the end be governed by money, and laws. I’ve already tested it, had AI write a 30 second script for me. Several. They were actually good. Ready to go. We could shoot it and release it. I fed that script into an AI and it created a 30 second video. And we used that, it's on our site.
 
It’s kind of amazing, kind of scary, kind of disturbing. But our future is what it’s going to be. It’s just all about what we do about it ahead of time and what we want or wish to project our future should be. Unless we ignore it and just let it happen, haphazardly. Which would be insane, but so typical.
 
 Thursday 5/25/23
 
Look up "Five Eyes - CIA": The Five Eyes is an intelligence alliance comprising Australia, Canada, New Zealand, the United Kingdom, and the United States. These countries are parties to the multilateral UK/USA Agreement, a treaty for joint cooperation in signals intelligence. Wikipedia ... 
 
Oh, yeah, I do remember that...

I think I said this before, but we need more movies, maybe in the Indie community, that actually and it’s gonna sound weird, praise our government for the good things it does. Maybe along the way, in the same "breath", explain some of the inconsistencies and screw ups. Share why things happen rather than people looking out from the outside and in hindsight and conspiratorially, deciding ridiculously on their own and their inner (and outer) echo chambers why something happened by ascribing massive amounts of bullshit to it. And along with that, and I just saw a movie like that. It takes some of the issues going on in the realm of hatred and shows it within the frame of the movie, not in a stupid, insipid, lame way, but in an intelligent way that speaks to our heartstrings, all to try and pull our country back together, to neutralize the bad information and especially right wing white Christian nationalist fascist bullshit we see so much of anymore.

Here’s an orientation: how do we handle Russia and China properly? We wouldn’t be in this situation and autocracy wouldn’t be on the rise around the world, had we handled things better. Granted it is starting to get tamped down. But we can still screw it up. And probably will. Our only saving grace is, truth tends to win out because it's hard to entirely end and takes far too much energy. Autocracies after all, are rather fat and lazy and eventually, die under their own political and moral obesity.

On that statement I understand that the irritation we feel in the present for things that were screwed up in the past. Especially if no one listened to you, if you had recognized it, rather than listen and absorb, they simply spin it all off into negativity.
 
Try allowing it in your silence, in your informed inner commentary, as it forms. Commentary… For the past problems to inform future progress. And in that way? You won’t look the fool. You won’t say things you regret when you realize later you were wrong. I’m speaking about faulty information and about others on their facts being not based in reality, and in that your reputation will be ever enhanced.

I’m listening to a Janes podcast about open-source tradecraft. See my comment above. Just now they’re talking about machine intelligence and using machines or technology in trade craft, including AI digesting and reporting with considerations of “hallucinations“ in AI, as an important consideration. They’re talking about, how one shares something where there’s a black box and you don’t know why it kicked out accurate information. And that’s a problem. I’m not sure it is. Because what you have to do there is be able to explain or prove the contentions. 
 
So you just tell the AI to print out a detailed itemized description of how it came to its conclusions. And if that makes sense to you and it fits the evidence, how is that not a solution? Perhaps not every time, but it’s a basic rule. He also has a good point about this on the podcast, that we shouldn’t hold the machine to a higher degree that a human. Because as humans, we too are faulty even with the best of raw and supportive intelligence.

Interesting. He goes on to say in the podcast pretty much what I just said above, what he added, and we have to add to that, is the statistical percentage of its success rate. And if that’s good, how can we not give it as much credence as we do with pure human intelligence? Or something like that...you get the idea…

Nice. He then says “we delude ourselves that we know how we think.”

They’re going on to say there always has to be a human in the loop. I would say they probably wouldn’t do things any different than I do with AI or even Wikipedia at this time. They’re great starting points. They offer information you may have forgotten or didn’t know about. And you take all the best of that and you vet it. I want to ensure the information is accurate and you have verify the sources and verify them. I would argue from multiple disparate directions if possible and then you’re good to go.

Then the host says if he gets something from the black box he initially feels like he's not gonna trust it. But if it can then be proven that it can do things that human can’t? So some of the issues we’re going to be up against are cultural. I think he said cultural, again... you get the idea, right?

The host says that Janes prefers to be right rather than first. And therein lies the problem with so much of our news and media today and in 24 hour news cycles in our for-profit news. And as well, in our tribalism.
Best of luck out there!

Cheers! Sláinte!

Monday, May 22, 2023

Russia Invades Ukraine, Film Festivals & "Pvt. Ravel's Bolero"

My antiwar film, "Pvt. Ravel's Bolero" has an interesting evolution which I'm detailing in my book of the same or similar name:


“Pvt. Ravel's Bolero - Film Companion Book History, Form & Structure in the Antiwar Filmic Poem & Historical Documentary" I'm hoping to finish it soon. I am this day finishing up the DVD version of the film and it will soon be released exclusively on a streaming service I recently started with two other indie filmmakers called, "ThrilzTV.com". Pop over and sign up for a free month. If you like it, stick around. It's only $4.99/month! And we ARE going to evolve beyond a streaming indie video channel in support of our indie filmmaking community. 

But this is really a story about my submitting my film to film festivals and in particular, a Russian festival. It was in the week's leading up to and including Russia's ludicrous invasion of Ukraine, all due to their sad, ill, despotic leader, Vladimir Putin, a once middling KGB agent, how apparently had a bruised ego.

My history with Russia goes back to my interest in espionage. It began in high school and the Irish "Troubles" (I'm Irish on my dad's side) which I later transferred into curiosity about US/Soviet relations. In studying that, it led me quite obviously and reasonably into UK/Russia relations history for the past 100 years of their involvement with and against one another. 

Britain found it had to teach America about Soviet espionage leading up to WWII, as we were quite ignorant and disbelieving about things London would tell us. SO they painstakingly updated and educated us on what they'd learned about Soviet tactics, and their long term active measures against other countries, and their disinformation techniques.

This led our "Wild" Bill Donovan, head of our OSS fame being questionably (illegally?) involved in the ABC group of America, Britain and Canada. Eventually, after the war the OSS became the CIA. But in studying this history for decades, considering going into the business myself, entering the USAF with a security clearance for nuclear weapons and signing up with the OSI (Office of Special Investigations, their FBI), I learned a lot.

"When the United States entered World War I in 1917, Donovan, then a major, organized and led the famed 1st Battalion of the 69th New York Volunteers (the original “Fighting Irish,” and which, after the unit was federalized, was redesignated the 165th Regiment of the 42nd Division). He was soon promoted to lieutenant colonel, and his unit arrived in France in October 1917, ready for action." - America's Spymaster, from Warfare History

When in the 1990s I noticed Newt Gingrich started using old Soviet KGB disinfo tactics, the GOP had begun its long decline into autocracy. It was frightfully obvious to me in that decade that something untoward was going on with our Republican Party. Full disclosure, I was raised in my mother's liberal, Teamsters Union family. But I had always had a good head for what was right and fair between human beings, since before I was able to speak.

At some point I left the USAF, got a couple of degrees, started a family and realized I not going into that business after all. But I had learned a lot. I decided I had apparently wasted my time for decades assimilating a vast amount of useless knowledge. Then the "Iron Curtain" fell. I abandoned all those thoughts, thinking I had wasted much effort on useless knowledge. 

Until the 1990s played themselves out and I saw oddly similar things happening, not in Russia, but right here at home in America. I had experienced some of the right wing's white Christian nationalism while in the USAF in Spokane, in Eastern Washington, which I felt was more akin to Idaho (or eastern Oregon) where many from the beaten south after the Civil War had fled to. 

More like Idaho (or was Idaho more like eastern Washington?), than the western side of the Cascade Mountains where I had grown up in Tacoma and around Mt. Rainier. One of my degrees is from Western Washington University in Bellingham, near Canada's Vancouver (love it up there!). So when I heard the leader of the "Church of Our White Christian Heritage" up from Georgia spewing hatred in a chapel in he back hills of Idaho one day, about how Vancouver, BC was a "cesspool of humanity", I was shocked. My wife was terrified. A guy on base had invited us, he drove, surprised us in leaving Washington state for church and needless to say, we didn't go back.

When I left the USAF, I read up on these neo-Nazi loving "Christians" and was shocked at what was going on, right here at home in America (Ruby Ridge, Waco, Oklahoma City bombing, and so on). And how Oregon had been home to some very questionable types I won't go into here. 

Needless to say, I retained my fascination with Russia (and let's not forget Ireland, which I visited for my 60 birthday back in 2015). So when Putin took over, I easily realized it couldn't be good for Russia (for earth?), for a KGB agent to take be handed the reins by a predecessor criminal and alcoholic, as leader of a broken State such as the old USSR. Especially considering the agreement was Putin would protect Boris Yeltsin and his family for all his crimes as Russia's leader in having plundered their coffers. Just as Putin has done and now worries about leaving his position. As trapped in power and Russia it trapped under him.

So thoughts of submitting a work of mine (especially an antiwar film) to Russia, to Moscow, carried a lot of baggage for me. Needless to say, it was a somewhat entertaining notion to me. But I had no idea how it would end up, as so much Russian culture does, as involved and bittersweet as it would turn out.

It all started with that email, from Moscow... 

Wednesday, February 17, 2022:
"Hi, I’m representer of Fox International Film Festival. We heard a lot about your great work "Pvt. Ravel's Bolero". We would like to invite you to take part in our festival."

I checked them on FilmFreeway where I usually submit my films through. Their profile page there said their were a Moscow/Rome film festival. First time I ever saw that. Twin cities...with Russia. OK. Cool. Whatever. I have a long history with Russia since it was the Soviet Union (USSR). I had studied their disinformation techniques and history of espionage along with that of the UK and America (and somewhat therefore, Canada, as in the "ABC" secret America, Britain, Canada during and leading up to WWII).

February 18, 2022
I entered my antiwar historical documentary/filmic poem film "Pvt. Ravel's Bolero", to their festival being held in Moscow (with an associated event indicated in Rome).


Tuesday, February 24, 2022
Russia invaded Ukraine.

My film ends, end credits run, then a list of all "Wars on Earth" scrolls on, seemingly forever. The day Russia invaded Ukraine, I added one last war. So when it played in Moscow, that would be seen on the screen. They would have to know that in reviewing the film so to put it on screen would be a conscious decision. I doubted they would play it, or select it. I felt I had quashed my chances at winning an award, or even being selected. 

I really wouldn't blame them. But maybe they would appreciate just seeing it in watching it, judging it, privately as we do as film festival judges. As I've done myself in our Gorst Underground Film Festival, Kelly Hughes and I founded some years ago. It would take some kind of bravery under the dictator Putin to chance that kind of thing. But there are more Russian patriots that one might think. As happens in any country over twenty years under oppression. Would I have done something like that when the sexual predator and criminal Donald Trump was POTUS45 (or POTUS47 for that matter)? Absolutely. But to be fair, it's no where (yet) near the same thing.
Kelly and I, along with Tony Green in Montreal, Canada have started ThrilzTV streaming indie video channel. It's pretty cool. An indie streaming channel by and for indie film types. Utterly no bearing on anything I'm talking about here. I just thought I'd mention it. It's been a lot of work, but it's coming along well, and you will hopefully hear about it more in the future. And not just from me.

I guess I mention that because I mentioned Kelly. So I should mention Tony. And I'm talking about these two films of mine, both of which are now going to be on ThrilzTV, exclusively with "Pvt. Ravel's Bolero" to become available on there soon after a lot of promotion and hoopla (hopefully, the hoopla, not the availability as it's GOING to be available there).

Tuesday, February 24, 2022:
"Hi, dear JZ Murdock! Congratulations from FIFF team, as your work was selected to the second part of our December-January 2022 programme. Your work was something special and our jury was really excited watching it! We would like to inform you that in addition to being successful in your chosen categories, our jury has recommended you the following categories in which they think your work can be successful as well:
"Best War Film"
Good luck in the final part of our October-November 2021 programme!
With love, the FIFF team!"

Wow. No kidding? I found that brave of them. A statement perhaps against Putin's Kremlin in general. Especially since the last words of the film seen on screen are: "Putin's Folly" 2022

So I was up for "Best War Film" that Friday, on February 27, 2022. They thought that my film, THAT film... would play in Moscow? Even after Russia had invaded Ukraine? That, was pretty bold. I was having fond feelings for them.

Alas, in the end, I received only Official Selection. But thinking it was played in Moscow after Russia invaded a neighbor for no good reason was reward enough.

Plus, it allowed me to email Symbiotic Film Festival in Kyiv to tell them about this as it played out. I've talked about this before, like when it was happening. I wrote a blog about it.

Thursday, January 13, 2022:
Symbiotic emailed me requesting I submit my film noir, "Gumdrop", a short horror (trailer). 

Monday, February 23, 2022:
FilmFreeway:
Dear JZ,
Congratulations!
Symbiotic Film Festival has updated the Judging Status of your submission "Gumdrop", a short horror to Selected.
"Gumdrop", a short horror
Selected
Project has been selected to be included in festival!"

Wednesday 26, 2022:
Email to Symbiotic Film Festival:
"I'm hoping as we all are that you are all safe.
I just wanted to mention, my film, "Pvt. Ravel's Bolero", an anti war film, filmic poem/documentary was just given official selection by Fox International Film Festival in Russia, and they also nominated it as  "Best War Film", which I take as a form of support for Ukraine, if not also a form of dissent against what is going on. 
The world watching and is with you and pushing for ever more to be done to help you.
Slainte! May this all end soon and in your favor!"


I never heard from them again. But it is rewarding to see that they are still listed on FilmFreeway and their website is still up.

I only wish the same could be said for the Fox International Film Festival who had shifted their home reference only to Rome. Their listed website URL from before is not online and their listing on FilmFreeway is now gone:
.
I wish them well and can only hope my own response against their criminal leader Putin's illegal war in Ukraine did not adversely affect or cost them any difficulties. I'm not vain enough to think it had, but under a regime like that, anything is possible. Though I see a reference to them on someone's Twitter posting from last Friday, May 12th, 2023. I can only assume this is the Rome festival location.


What does make me happy is that the Symbiotic Film Festival seems to be alive and well. They are still today listed on FilmFreeway as being in Kyiv and their website and Twitter are up! Though their website is only updated through last year, their FilmFreeway listing indicates July 31, 2023 as their event date for this year's festival.


I wish them all well! Both festivals.

And now "Pvt. Ravel's Bolero" will be exclusively on "ThrilzTV.com". It's only 28 minutes long. But it packs a punch. Which explain why it's winning all these awards, I suppose. 

I wish you all well. We'll need it!

Cheers! Sláinte!

June 1, 2023 update:
Since multi award winning "Pvt. Ravel's Bolero" is ONE, an antiwar documentary about WWI, I'm not surprised Moscow rejected it here in this festival, since...TWO, the last phrase in the entire film, after a long scrolling list of all wars on earth, is:
"Putin's Folly 2022" for the Ukraine war he instigated.
I so wanted to be impressed by them. But I also understand.
And I should be even more impressed that the Fox International Film Festival in Moscow in Feb. 27, 2022 did play it.
I have one final festival Moscow Film Party coming up, then I'm done there... Notification Date: June 20, 2023

Wednesday, May 17, 2023

About ThrilzTV.com - New Streaming Indie Video Channel by 3 Indie Filmmakers

I have been working since late last year on a new project, ThrilzTV! A streaming indie video channel. Thought bubble of Tony Green, in Montreal, who pulled in Kelly Hughes here in our PNW where together after a lot of work and a couple of false starts, we recently went live. We're building something very special here that you can get in on the beginning of, something very interesting, very unique, where you can help to make it all that it can, and will be.

We are three indie filmmakers who got together and started the Thrilz streaming indie video channel, one we could be proud of, offering a place for others like us. When Amazon Prime recently dumped a lot of indie filmmakers' films, where would they go? 

Who are we?

Tony Green - Tony is an indie film director with a long history in the recording industry who resides in Montreal, Canada.


Kelly Wayne Hughes - Kelly is an indie film director and event creator (Gorst Underground Film Festival, Slash Night Monthly Indie Film Night (which COVID-19 killed off), and other events) residing in Port Orchard, Washington. He lives across Sinclair Inlet from JZ, which hosts the massive Bremerton Naval Shipyard.



JZ Murdock - JZ is an indie film director, author, writer, and event creator (along with Kelly, with their Gorst Underground Film Festival and Slash Night Monthly Indie Film Nights, in Gorst & Bremerton, Washington respectively).

Our goal? To support our indie filmmaker community, their films, and fans. All are welcome, but not all may see it as their cup of tea. What we're not? Hollywood. Bollywood, Nollywood, or any "wood" other than the woods we frequent off the beaten path.

Does that mean we're bad? Naw...not at all. Just: Raw...Indie...Cinema! As we evolve over time, bringing to light more and more of what is missed and unseen out there, and needs to be brought into the light. There is so much interesting media out there, media that no one will ever see, all because it's not vastly overmarketed by a massive machine of business and the film industry.

We are Indie!

We are...ThrilzTV!

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