Showing posts with label Rachel Maddow. Show all posts
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Wednesday, July 3, 2024

Walkabout Thoughts #96

Thoughts in Streams of Consciousness, Rough & Ready, and Lightly Edited from an Award-Winning Filmmaker/Author you’ve never heard of while walking off Reality and hopefully the last half-life vestiges of Long Covid while listening to podcasts.
Walking Day is Monday, July 1, 2024.


Weather for the day… nice day, starting out, 64° with little wind, semi-overcast, a bit humid. 67° once back at home.

Oh, this just went live yesterday...

Podcast is WTF? With Marc Maron. 
Nope, turned out it's Rachel Maddow's latest ep. of Ultra, Bonus Ep: Rachel Maddow w/Tony Kushner , it's Monday! It's good for MAGA to listen to at least the 1st 15 minutes or so about our history of what we're seeing today, from a century ago with Henry Ford, and Italy. And other stuff. IF you can STILL vote for Trump after THIS, you're support involves authoritarianism, not Trump. 

I'd said I wouldn't vote for Trump back in 2016 merely because of his character, not his politics. Which I never needed to get anywhere near. Now I am and his "politics" IS... authoritarianism. However we live in a democratic Constitutional Republic, let's keep it... as Ben Franklin once challenged US. 


And if you think we don't live in a democracy but a "constitutional Republic" (my MAGA older brother has said that for years and I never got what he was getting at until he supported Trump)? That's ignorant autocratSpeak for sedition if not moving toward insurrection. 

You literally CANNOT HAVE a "constitutional Republic" WITHOUT being IN a democracy. Dumbass. Yes. We see you. You're going to take power and come for us? Well? Americans' response to things like that from foreign OR domestic enemies has typically been... "Here I am!" And did I say, "Dumbass"? 
Dumbass.

So today, SCOTUS finally ruled on something, pushing it to the very end of their term, seeing the Trump immunity crap mostly all back down to the lower courts. I think they’ve been ruling lately in ways telling Congress to finally do their damn job. Relying on Roe v Wade for 50 years? It was idiotic. Do your job. Leave it not up to SCOTUS in their toxic conservative slant on things lately.

I’m glad it’s not easy to indict a POTUS for actions in office for official actions but the government needs to protect us, needs to have the capability of self-awareness, when it’s being attacked, especially internally, especially by single points of failure like POTUS as in the case of convicted felon and failed exPOTUS Donald Trump. Come on I mean, catch a clue?

The Executive, the White House, the Oval Office, the President is usually pleased to get more power. Not now. It's gone too far, apparently. Pres. Biden's address to America after the SCOTUS ruling showed him very concerned. If you don't have the law restraining a POTUS, then it's about their character? For Biden, I think we're good. For Trump? Good God! 

Or those like him so very ready to imitate him? We're screwed. Trump's CHARACTER was what worried me about him becoming POTUS back in 2016 to begin with! This isn't good if he gets elected. He can't. Justice needs to be seen for America in his going through his earned indictments and trials, conviction and imprisonment. I still think he's earned, if not by law then by morality, to receive Capital Punishment. Our body politic is not protecting itself well enough, yet, and it has to update how it handles things like this.

For decades BOTH Republicans AND Democrats said POTUS had too much power, more vocally whenever their opponent is in the WH. Today, SCOTUS gave POTUS even more power. Pres. Biden said he will not abuse his powers. He's not who I'm worried about. One almost wishes he would make some abuses just to get this all under control. But when the cops start acting like the criminals, it's not good.

All America need to drop what they're doing & educate themselves on authoritarians. Read, "Strongmen". IF that were to happen, support for Donald Trump would rapidly drop off.

He would steadily lose the ability to receive enough votes to even BE on the ticket he has no right being anywhere near.

Pay attention to our future. Perhaps by reading, On Tyranny, by Timothy Snyder.
People need to learn about authoritarians...before it's too late (and before November 2024).

When you understand the Authoritarian Playbook, the format of the authoritarian, you see clearly in Donald Trump what's going on. MAGA may never see it because they are lost deep in their (his) delusions and desires. But many of them will and eventually all of them can.

Yikes...

Now Marc is talking about some documentary he watched that was too much recreation. He said it should’ve just been a cheap movie but he did learn some things. For one, he asks if Hitler actually ever did personally kill anyone? Someone said he could think of one person.

Possibly not because this is in the area of ideologues who get other people to do their killing due to their position of power and lack of accountability, they tend to get carried away and in their  "yes men" they surround themselves with. They become ever more toxic and ever more delusional until you end up with something like World War II and the Holocaust, which wasn’t just Jews being slaughtered, but they were the more aggressively mechanized murdered, not to mention the whole, "you gotta wear a star" for purposes of humiliation and designation, and all that crap. 

That reminds me that it’s Monday and Rachel Maddow's new Ultra episode is out.

Great, so no Ultra this week because of the Fourth of July, which is not today, so what the hell? But instead, a bonus episode interviewing playwright Tony Kushner whoever that is. Turns out, pretty cool episode.

Ah. He is working with someone else on a screenplay for Steven Spielberg of the first season of Rachel Maddow's Ultra podcast. Well, good for her!

As Rachel points out if you want to get benefits and no ads on her podcast, you can subscribe to the MSNBC something.

About that. Paying. Yes we should support our creatives and things we support and enjoy and listen to and watch or read so they continue. But nowadays, my DVR /Internet and cable through Comcast/Xfinity is around $250 take or leave $10 every month. Then there is any additional like Paramount+ or Apple TV or Disney+ where "plus" stands for, "you’re gonna pay more money out and in the end you’ll be "nickel & $10'ed" into poverty."

I find I have to get one streaming service, which is for a month, use whatever free trial weeks or whatever I can get, and try to squish a month's viewing into as soon as I can before the free trial runs out. Then cancel and join another streaming channel to see what you enjoy on their offerings.

If you make a shit load of money, just subscribe to everything all year around, annually being cheaper. But you can’t help but notice that in total, maybe you only watch any streaming channel for a month (or two or so) out of every year, but you pay for an annual subscription.

Well, that’s fine if you’ve got a lot of money, who cares I guess, and you want to support things not going away if you like them, so...

But as most of us, or a majority of us (or a lot of us anyway) view it, people on a fixed income, people in retirement or at a low economic level, those who don’t have that kind of money, it turns out that an enjoyment factor can become a burden

And it’s not even something like online sports gambling addiction. If I were married, or in a living together relationship, or was more active and out and about all the time, I wouldn’t need so much news and entertainment. But they keep my sanity so I pay the fees and try to keep it at a minimum.

When the Internet started up, we all loved it. Free information for everyone! That was the 80s and 90s.

Then at some point in the 90s and early 2000s everything started getting locked down and monetized. Service got better in many ways, to be sure. But at some point I started to realize I was being nickel and dimed to death financially. And some things had disappeared completely.

I found things I had been subscribed to for months that I only used for one week and I’d been paying for almost a year and in one case for a couple years. It wasn’t much back then, but I never used the service. And I had a job and was making a hell of a lot  more than I do now.

I’ve always checked my checking account, but I got more adamant about monitoring what was going on with the advent of the internet and paid services. Understand, while some paid for AOL, or some service or other in the early days, I struggled and learned and tried to go free. You learned a lot more. You saved a lot of money.

In recent years, I started realizing at times that I was paying for a streaming service I forgot I even had. So I monitor it all closely and I’m not getting what is essentially getting scammed. Like legitimate scamming. Like when you get on a website or get a new service and have to sign their customer agreement that's either 50 pages or one page that you can’t understand what the hell it says.

I know we passed a law that says it has to be readable and understandable. But a lot of people still don’t understand. So you tend to just click, "Yes, I accept whatever..." and move on.

Be careful about that though.

A lot of artists have signed contracts and found out years (or decades) later, when they knew they had to be making millions that they weren’t making much of anything. Or they needed something and asked for it and got the fancy car and in being young and inexperience and maybe previously poor, were quite happy not giving it all much though. In this case, I'm thinking about record companies. You can refer a couple episodes back on Marc Maron WTF? With Geezer Butler from Black Sabbath or read his published book that details all of this kind of thing.

I learned many years ago, back in. I don’t know, the 80s or 90s, never sign any contract without at least reading the entire thing. I’ve been sitting in the office of a company and they handed me a contract they said was "boilerplate" and maybe it was. Typically it is.

I still read it, sitting there in the office wasting their time. Unless they said I can take it home in which case I’ll probably have a lawyer look at it.

But the very least we can do is vote and pay taxes we owe, and read our damn contracts before you sign them!

Because if you don’t understand something or you do notice something where it sounds like in the future you could be getting screwed? Don’t sign it. Negotiate, a lot of times they’re happy to negotiate. Sometimes it’s just a matter of if they can get something, great if not, they'll give you a fair deal. That's business. That's what I call "corporate thought". Get what you can at a minimum, see what you can get. No thought of I don't want to rip someone off. Just take what you can get. At some point it is just reasonable, logical, but it can also be kind of sleazy and slimy.

I mean in business, it’s not always criminal or unethical. It’s just "ask for the moon and take what you can get." That is sensible, with a company, but with people, I think we have a responsibility to not ruin their lives. And you know be kind of fair. But it goes both ways. So there are times when I asked for the ridiculous, and... was easily given it. I walked out of there Happy. Happier.

Until I realized, once I thought about it (see it pays to take time to read, absorb, consider, which offered the "moon", really? IS that what's happening?). If they were that happy to sign the ridiculous thing I asked for, could I have asked for more? But don’t go down that path if that happens. You'll drive yourself mad. 

Enjoy your great deal for the time being. Just tuck it in the back of your mind that the next time you negotiate ask for what you didn’t get and then ask for the ridiculous. The reasonably ridiculous. Don’t ask to be president United States if you’re signing a record deal. But maybe listen to what artists like Jewel did. Getting from the record company what the company thought was a ridiculously a good deal for them but turned out to make her a whole shit load of money in the end. She just seems to have a natural ability many of us don’t have. That’s what lawyers are for and CPAs. If you’re in that kind of business or industry? Use them.

I always told my kids, if you’re in business or if you’re making a lot of money, use reasonable caution as I pointed out above. Get an accountant and a CPA. But also, depending on how much you’re making, get an accountant or a CPA or a lawyer to audit your accountant or CPA or lawyer, and on a six-month if not annual basis.

You may still get ripped off, but at least you’ll minimize it and won’t go on for years or decades before you realize you’re old and have no money and are in debt with maybe tax evasion charges.

Starting my 2nd mile and now finally shutting up and listening to Rachel‘s podcast on stage and live but recorded.

Rachel says the single smartest person she ever interviewed is this playwright Tony Kushner.

Which, for some reason, makes me think I need to get back to submitting my screenplay to agents again and managers. This is something I started doing about 1984 when I graduated WWU. And while I made some progress, as I’ve detailed in previous blogs certainly with “The Teenage Bodyguard' (True crime drama screenplay), I still have never actually sold anything .

What I’ve learned about that over the years is it doesn’t matter how qualified or great you are in your discipline or art. My younger brother's art is amazing and yet, he's not rich (should be). It matters if you have enough networking and business sense or simply a capability of either brute force or cleverness in positioning yourself to where luck is gonna happen to SOMEBODY and it might as well be YOU because you got yourself to be standing there when it hit.

I’ve been on the receiving end of that several times in my life and almost did hit it big, at least by my definition. Which isn’t very grandiose. Since where and how I grew up I never thought I would make it to $10 an hour. And I went way the hell over that. I never thought I’d have any kind of retirement and I ended up with three, one of them now fully depleted with what life threw this way, but not by any misadventures on my part. Just as I said… Life.

I do dislike promoting myself. You have no idea… The me of 20 or 40 years ago, would be completely blown away by the me of today in that arena. And I assume the me of 20 years from now or certainly the me of having found success and financial reward in the future, would look back on me now and just shake his head. Fool.

Whatever...

We do the best we can in life. Be happy with knowing that. It’s like raising your kids. Most of us are going to screw up, make mistakes. Maybe our kids will grow up troubled. But if you did the best you could with what you had and you showed them love and made them know they are loved, it not only makes up for a lot with them, but I think you can mostly forgive yourself. Maybe…

From Rachel's book, she’s reading a passage on stage live: "Ford accused Jews, or Jew Jewish capitalists of all evils in the world.“

If you can’t see how stupid that is, how ignorant that is, how bigoted that is, how racist that is, then you probably agree with Ford and we can see you for what you are. Bigoted, binary, vapidly ignorant.

It’s simple to avoid being that way. Always strive to be better than who you were yesterday and are today.

Henry Ford called the metal brass, a "Jew metal". Weird. Therefore, you found no brass in the cars he manufactured. Give me a break.

Reminds me, hopefully for a completely different reason, of the Smith Tower in Seattle Washington. As I understood it because of some kind of action or strike by maybe lumbermen or purveyors and dealers of wood for building back in the day, he refused to put any wood in his building and used, massive amount of steel and marble and I think brass, but I’d have to check. If you’re in Seattle and you got some spare time over and take a look inside the tower. Go up to the top have a drink. It’s truly a marvel to behold just to walk in on the ground floor. 

Regarding wooden Seattle skyscrapers.

Ford: if you ever look around the country where there’s trouble you will find Jews. OK, but I would assume there’s also Catholics and Christians and atheist protestants and maybe Mormons Muslims… What a douchebag.

Just to mention, since medieval times and before, Christians weren’t allowed to do certain things, and when you see a market where you can jump into it and others wouldn't allow you to do much else, you jump into it. Jews fulfilled those roles for maybe thousands of years, certainly in Christian nations. So when the only people you have to blame are those who are the only people you would allow to do certain jobs, is that on them or you, or your people?

Sure anybody who has a monopoly can get carried away or abusive. I’m not arguing that. But to lay that blame not on toxic capitalism or the awareness of a paradigm forced into being, not by the people you are blaming for it, and to blame their race or culture as you may perceive them, just seems ignorant and racist.

This is why Buddhists believe in enlightenment. If you are aware enough of any situation, you focused out of, especially in a binary manner, being more aware of the situation and all its aspects which will help you course correct and decrease or eliminate your own cognitive biases: Be more aware, it's better for everyone.

Ford's radical anti-Semitism isn’t something we should be against because of Jews, but because of the bigotry, ignorance, and single-minded focus on laying vast amounts of blame and situations upon any people, not just Jews.

There’s so much bigotry involved in racism against blacks or Jews, or you name them, that when you pull back, we should be against, not just the racism alone, but we should be against the overall condition. We should be against the mindset that leads us to lay blame or hate any one group of people, when that’s not at all that’s going on.

This is interesting, what Rachel is reading because I didn’t know Ford got involved in politics, or tried to. Though I did know he bought a newspaper (I've listened to all Rachel's podcasts) and poured his hatred of the Jews into it. I didn’t know it was losing money until somebody sent him a letter saying to pick an enemy and stick to it. Then let’s make sensationalism!

Ford had already been laying blame on the foot of whoever he lost to in an election and blamed him in a way that evokes Donald Trump today. Trump sure as hell isn't original in anything he’s doing. He’s just original in trying to pull it in America where we are supposed to be inoculated against his kind of fascism. Ford was deep into that over 100 years ago here in America when we were less aware of fascism and such overt bigotry.

So apparently, Ford himself got into disinformation in the years around 1917. While I have said that Russians were the disinformation experts, honed to excellence by the Soviets and continued on by the Russians after the USSR fell after the CCCP no longer exists, I do believe they are the consistent experts in the world at it through recent history.

What we’ve seen elsewhere and certainly in America over the past hundred years, at least in people who from time to time, stumbled upon it, and touched on the notes of fascism and authoritarianism, every time have had their legs cut out from under them because we are after all, America.

Today we revisit this. You will note that Donald Trump is going in this direction but is also now a convicted felon. He didn’t quite get away, yet. At least we know him and we see him and we are showing him to the world.

Sadly in his running for election again, and in having as much support by his MAGALoon contingency, much of the world is shaking in fear over the prospect of America, the most powerful nation in the history of human life, might give its power to a buffoon and narcissist like our little fascist Donald Trump

Just to point this out in case you missed it, the guy who sent Ford that letter guiding him into disinformation and a greater depth of fascism would be today Trump's, Steve Bannon. Who also just surrounded himself for four months in prison for his crimes under Donald Trump. We can only hope something happens to him in prison, where he never returns to walk our free streets again. Streets that are still free unless we do not stop the people trying to put us all in "concentration camps", in our minds, and our own communities.

Starting mile three…

Wow, apparently for two years Ford ran 92 articles in his newspaper against the Jews. Like “Jewish jazz moron music becomes our new national music“ and., “The international Jew, the world’s problem “, apparently Ford distributed this newspaper across the country through his Ford dealerships.

Evidently, Ford dealers would toss the latest issue of Ford’s racist newspaper under the front seat of every brand-new sold Ford automobile.

This is really despicable behavior.

This is funny. Several people on this street I’ve walked by have smiled at me. Usually, they will nod their head, smile wave, whatever and I'll return a gesture. But this last woman had an interesting smile. I kind of thought, well that was interesting. I mean, I thought that it nice but for some reason, I looked down to see what’s on my T-shirt today. And today I’m wearing my big bold cartoon letters saying "That Metal Show" from, you may have guessed it, “That Metal Show “. The show for years who had on rock legends. Fun show with two comedians and one big brain "can’t forget anything rock ‘n’ roll historian": "Hosted by Eddie Trunk (the historian), Jim Florentine, and Don Jamieson, That Metal Show distills decades of your favorite hard rock and heavy metal into a solid 60 minutes."

Oh the best part of this reading Rachel is doing on stage is that Hitler lifted entire passages of Ford's four-volume book, raging against the Jews and used it for his own Nazi purposes

I’ve detailed this more extensively in a previous blog.

To sum this all up about Hitler and Ford? Hitler was interviewed by a journalist and he said he considers Henry Ford his mentor. Well, that pretty much wrapped that up.

How do you know you believe in a conspiracy theory? Because it can’t be proven or disproven, even with facts. It may even be able to be disproven, but the conspiracy theory adherent remains believing they know a secret and that makes them special. Who wants to give up believing to their core that they are special and they know something that most others don’t. That they could be the hero if they just do this or that? Which typically is to blame on their intellectual or physical attacks on some group. Which is how Hitler put it to the journalist, that “somebody has to take the blame."

One of the primary rules of the authoritarian playbook noted by Professor Timothy Snyder is that you have to have "an enemy" or someone put "the other ". Someone to blame. Especially someone you can get others to hate. The more ignorance involved, the more powerful your cause.

I’m all for being a patriot or dying for a cause or for your country, but we have people who are dying for their country, or ready to, or hurting or killing others for their country, entirely unaware of what they’re attacking them for, all based upon conspiracy theory and ignorance. And in the case of Donald Trump, in support of a criminal autocrat who is trying to abuse his power and position to end how the United States has run for over 200 years.

Trump wants to have power and be positioned in office forever until he dies. And then before he dies it is his hope he will choose someone to continue his evil works. And yeah, I do think this is evil. I don’t so much think Trump is evil, as much as mentally incompetent or at least mentally unhealthy Or as I like to put it, psychosocially unhealthy, as a sociopath, narcissist and pathological liar, all of which does fit together.

There is a book out worth checking out by Ramin Setoodeh, "Apprentice in Wonderland - How Donald Trump and Mark Burnett Took America Through the Looking Glass. Pretty interesting stuff. The author says Trump is living a delusion with many "enemies" as he perceives it. It's a pathology. From the book blub on Amazon:

"Here for the first time is the definitive untold story of Donald Trump’s years as a reality TV star. Trump himself admits he might not have been president without The Apprentice. Now, just as he uncovered the chaos inside the daytime favorite The View in his bestselling Ladies Who Punch, Ramin Setoodeh chronicles Trump’s dramatic tenure as New York’s ultimate boss in the boardroom, a mirage created by Survivor producer Mark Burnett and NBC boss Jeff Zucker. With unprecedented access, including hours of interviews with Trump, his boardroom advisers George Ross and Carolyn Kepcher, Eric Trump, and some of the most memorable contestants, and writing with flair and authority, Setoodeh shares all the untold tales from this legendary show that has left its mark on popular culture, shaped the legend of its star, and ultimately changed American history."

What Trump is trying to do is spread his belief system that he, and especially Steve Bannon (who is internationally trying to indoctrinate people into authoritarianism), are simply pushing out evils against humanity. Stephen Miller is a prime example of this. They are all spreading fantastic beliefs untethered in reality with just enough truth in them to confuse and obfuscate.

It all evokes the concept of “purity “or “pure blood “. Which is a nonsense concept that led to eugenics as a concept and the Nazi effort in WWII. It purports to work as a species to make yourself the best you can be. Evil? No, not per se. But when you turn it into a science with no concept of humanity, humaneness, empathy, or compassion, then it quite easily, and quite quickly becomes evil and does great evil to others, whom you do not like.

If you want proof of that, go to an actual history book or documentaries on World War II. Don’t just focus on the Holocaust because although that was specifically aimed at a group, the Nazis also slaughtered I believe 12 million Russians in their war of attrition.

The first crime for Nazis in pre-WWII is their belief in their perfection or purity, which was never true to begin with from the get-go.

So much authoritarianism is based on lies, disinformation and propaganda and a belief in "I am greater than you" and you are “"the other" who we need to fear as an existential threat and eliminate you entirely and completely. Then of course move onto a new perceived and purposed "enemy", the next group whom we designate as the new, “the other “. In Soviet Union under Stalin “the other “ became your neighbor, or your cousin, your spouse, your children, or your parents.

And that’s what we’re looking forward to here under an authoritarian. As much as MAGA can rationalize, or Steve Bannon claims Trump is only speaking in metaphor… his January 6 insurrection, proved that bullshit. While their ends may justify their means, their end for us shold be obvious to us, because of logic and history. Foretelling our future if we're not careful.

How do we know the conspiracy theory bullshit we’ve been hearing is there and happening now? Listen to Trump and his MAGA officials and followers:

"You can’t trust journalists. The media is your enemy. The other party, the Democrats, are doing crimes that are exactly what we’re doing, but we’re trying to neutralize that by saying they’re doing it and denying we’re doing it. Science is faulty. Science is wrong. Science does not know more than Internet Internet “facts“. Rumors are as valid as journalism. The zeitgeist is whatever we wanted to be and whenever the establishment says it is is wrong until we become the establishment and then whatever we say is always correct and right and righteous. Theocracy gives us more authoritarianism than we can achieve in any other way."

And then eventually: "Religions are your enemy We the government or your religion. Our dear leader is your God." And suddenly we are North Korea. Think about America becoming North Korea as the most powerful country, the richest country in the history of humankind. And who then becomes "the other"?

Everybody, not the United States. But we'll always have enemies inside us to sow distrust, fear, hatred. Good grief read about how bad it got under Stalin in the USSR. If "they" (whomever, other countries) want to be safe, if "they" want us to trust and believe them, it is all about our empire. They have to be all about our empire. Our Foundation. Hoow we founded it and the truth only we can designate as, "Truth".

Remember, "No other Gods before Me"? And "Me" is our Dear Leader, or whoever is newly designated as such. Our government and our Dear Leader being one in the same.

Therefore, all representatives of our government are representatives of our Dear Leader... who is God, and they are therefore minor Gods below him, doing his bidding.

Brief Aside: I was a fan of Kate Bush nearly since she first performed, I never heard of this group before now.

Brief and Final Aside: I've often said, "Buddhism", the Buddha Dharma (including all the teachings of all Buddhas), which I would argue is not a religion. 

I've met people raised in Buddhist countries who tend to treat Buddhism as a religion. I see that as the human propensity to recreate all things of duration to be a religion either directly or of a sort. I reject that and the concept of different "schools" of "Buddhism". I take any "Buddha" other than the original as interesting insights that should be considered, and incorporated or lost as one sees fit and appropriate. I was raised old-school Slovak Catholic, my mom's family is Czechoslovakian, Dad's is Irish. I spent my early adulthood surveying various forms of thought and religions. I earned a university degree in psychology.

I found it fascinating that my Buddhism merged well with my childhood Okinawan Isshinryu Karate studies, in the Asian philosophy we were introduced to in those classes which later merged well with my Aikido studies, and even later in my studies in psychology. I saw a Buddhist vein of similarity amidst them all. And in myself, a comfort and familiarity I eventually realized came from my upbringing at home and my initial familiarization in Karate of East Asian philosophy.

I started to follow Buddhism as I best understood and accepted it. I later became a Freemason and realized I was not a ritualist. But Buddhism seemed to be my best form of matching up to how I understood the world outside of science, and in avoidance of organized religions. Which seemed too problematic, lending themselves far too much to undue control and abuse.

If someone told the Buddha that they prayed to him, he might respond by gently redirecting them to focus on their own practice and understanding. He would likely emphasize that enlightenment comes from one's own efforts and realization rather than through praying to external figures. The Buddha might say something akin to:

"Do not pray to me, but rather, seek to understand my teachings and apply them in your life. True liberation comes from your own effort and insight, not from external supplication."

This response would align with the core Buddhist principle that individuals must take responsibility for their own spiritual development.  

Western Christianity saw this as barbarianism for hundreds of years. Maybe thousands.

The original Buddha, Siddhartha Gautama, emphasized self-reliance, personal experience, and understanding in the pursuit of enlightenment. He did not advocate for the worship or prayer to deities, including himself. 

His teachings, encapsulated in the Four Noble Truths and the Eightfold Path, were designed to guide individuals toward their own enlightenment through ethical living, meditation, and wisdom. I have had great respect for the Dalai Lama Lhamo Thondupand, and for the late Thích Nhất Hạnh, among others.

These are all things that if helpful, can be utilized, shaped and formed to aid us in our travels from birth to at least, death.

On that note, I’ll bid you adieu…and leave you with that.
It’s 10:39AM and not time for lunch.

Cheers! Sláinte!

Wednesday, June 26, 2024

Walkabout Thoughts #90

Thoughts & Streams of Consciousness, rough and ready, from award-winning filmmaker/author you’ve never heard of while walking off reality, vestiges of long Covid halflife while listening to podcasts. Walking day: Monday, June 24, 2024.

Weather for the day… nice day, starting out, 59° overcast cool a bit too windy 65° back at home.

Podcast is Rachel Maddow presents Ultra ep., Malmedy Everybody should listen to this podcast. It's our history. It's current. It's a great example of how what is happening today, what has happened before and we should be concerned, aware, and understand, that it can't happen again, or where it failed before, it needs to fail now.

Well, this is interesting. My friend and fellow indie director Kelly Hughes called last night and we talked for a couple hours. He told me about a guy he interviewed who said he found some spare footage lying around, threw it together in a day put it up online and it’s on Amazon Prime now. He’s already made $20,000 off it so far.

I put a lot of effort into my films and it's paid off critically as far as winning awards around the world. But it hasn’t turned into any kind of economic success. In fact, all I’ve been doing is spending money on them.

So it occurred to us both that we may have enough footage just lying around, we could slap something together (separately), and produce something interesting.

My documentary film has issues with music rights. An accident, where I thought I had the public domain but it turned out I didn’t...for one song. For the primary song, 17 minutes of my 28-minute documentary. I tried to negotiate with NAXOS but got nowhere. They were nice however and informative. I did find a free legal service for help on this kind of thing.

For that film and my film noir, the issue seems to be that I’d pushed my video editing software so far to the edge that it caused issues related to configuring for streaming to get up onto platforms like Amazon Prime, or Filmhub, a distributor.

So what if I took some simply produced film and got that online on some streamer like Amazon Prime? We’re looking into that now.

That guy he had interviewed has videos up on YouTube about all this kind of thing and more.

Oh, I noticed MAGA and Trump supporters are pushing out a lot of nonsense that Trump had never said neoNazis and white supremacists are "very fine people", because Snopes has now discredited that. Uh huh...

By the way, in America 1 in 10 are diagnosed with mental illness. According to NIMH 1 in 5 Americans are living with mental illness. The estimate is that 50% of Americans with mental illness are undiagnosed. Donald Trump is one of those. Even his niece Mary Trump, a retired psychologist, author and podcaster, recognizes her uncle's pathologies. Mary Trump worked for one year at the Manhattan Psychiatric Center while working on her PhD research. She is a contributor to the book Diagnosis: Schizophrenia, published by Columbia University Press in 2001. She has taught graduate courses in developmental psychology, trauma, and psychopathology. Thus she has some bone fides, especially in being a family member and knowing Donald Trump very well over her lifetime.

The problem there is that we’re dealing with mafiaSpeak or mobSpeak in how Trump lingo speaks around things, is designed to avoid accountability or legal repercussions. Fundamentally to protect himself as mobsters do, against being recorded or relayed in court, regarding crimes being committed. Damn, has no one seen a mob, mafia, or organized crime movie? Watch any crime film and you see them doing exactly that. Listen to those like Michael Cohen who repeatedly said that’s exactly how Trump speaks... in code.

So when you read what Trump said or watch a video of him saying there were "very fine people on both sides", it doesn’t matter that he didn’t exactly say he was talking about... neoNazis and white supremacists. Even when immediately after that he said the exact opposite, that those people should be prosecuted.

So yes, technically Snopes is right. While fundamentally flawed and 100% incorrect

Therein is the big problem with Donald Trump on our political scene.

When he says things like that, those people clearly hear what he is saying. We’ve even heard they said they heard it, that they got his message and were cheering and celebrating. They had parties over it. The fact that he denied them after his initial comment is something they discredit themselves. It's irrelevant to them. They don’t buy into his denials. They received his message. We received it. But fact-checkers and the law haven't? Can't? That, is a problem. Yes?



So in our supporting his contentions that he never said that or he never meant that, is disingenuous at best and disinformation at worst. We have to get a handle on this. Because he’s walking right over a lot of of our historical protections, social contracts and of course, he’s always abused legal contracts.

As I’ve said in previous blogs about Soviet and Russian disinformation and espionage tactics, I find it a bizarre reality today, and in recent history, that what I read and studied being done by Russia to other countries, even to their own citizens, is now rampant in America by the Right, and has spread among countries of western democracy. When that happens, who do you look to? Enemies of democracy, obviously.

Which brings us back to Rachel Maddow's podcast, Ultra. About how this all happened decades ago, before I was even born, before she was born. But if hindsight is foresight, we’re watching this all come on again. We been here before. We're hearing about it. We have to act to stop it.

Before I make this next brief aside, let me say I took "criminal evidence for police" with a bunch of Tacoma Police Department Sergeants at Tacoma Community College when I was about 18. They were probably looking to better themselves for promotion. Our teacher was Joseph Wambaugh's partner in LA for years. Joe was incredibly famous for writing "The Blue Knight" and "The Onion Field" (made into a film), and TV shows like "Police Story".

I took the TPD police tests (written and obstacle course_ at 19, and was their best time on the obstacle course that day by quite a bit. I made #350 out of 650 applicants. I didn't have a chance, but wanted to take the test anyway. I entered USAF as Law Enforcement that next year (I was going to get a job dammit!). But lost the slot for LE during Basic due to having flat feet which should have kept me from enlisting, but the doctor at my physical told me to keep on my socks if I wanted to get in. I was initially tested and vetted for the USAF OSI which was a lot to was over a month or so. However, once accepted I decided to separate from service and go to college. There's a lot more to the why of that but this is the short version. Finally, my university degree is in psychology. 

OK so, here's what I wanted to say with those caveats now stated...America needs to become more familiar with the signs of both criminal behavior and mental illness. Because when observing (or hearing about) Donald Trump's behaviors and at times speech, all you can see (or hear) are obvious examples of those two behaviors. At least it's obvious to me.

Speaking of Russia, Ukraine has made some great advancements, and apparently some others disconnected and unconnected from Ukraine in having attacked some religious groups recently in Russia. Some Russian government officials are now trying to blame Ukraine for that. Figures. Like MAGA only in Russia, with Putin rather than the dumber Trump. It just doesn’t make any sense that Ukraine would be doing that. When they’re doing things far more effective and taking out Military resources in Ukraine belonging to Russia and as well within Russia

As I recently joked about war criminal Putin's illegal Ukrainian war:
Russia: What can we do to fuck ourselves?
Putin: Let’s attack Ukraine!

I just saw a claim by someone saying that World War III began in 2015 indicating a certain situation had indicated that (sorry, can't remember what it was). I would argue that it started in 2014 when Russia invaded Ukraine but no one did anything. Or in 2008 when Russia attacked Georgia. Seeing a pattern here?

I learned even in the schoolyard as a child with bullies, if you don’t put them down ASAP, settle in for a rough ride if not a life of abuse and punishment. Punish them or take the punishment. We did not stop Putin before, we’re only starting to stop him now, while we should’ve started pushing back HARD two years ago, at least. For those who claim we shouldn’t help Ukraine or shouldn’t Stop Putin, they might as well not be Americans. I wanted Hilary to win rather than Trump, in part to be someone who would handle Putin and not play out a modern Neville Chamberlain scenario all over, again for all Western democracies.

I know they think they are American and patriots but when you follow the preferences of your country's enemies, how does that make you either American or patriot? It may make you a nationalist or Christian nationalist, neither of those being badges to wear with honor. Certainly not the way they are being executed by the MAGALoon Trump contingent.

SUV just drove by me and I got a strong whiff of vanilla. Perhaps a vanilla latte? Nice.

Starting mile two.

 Wondering if I should start doing 4 miles instead of 3 at some point if I’m walking this daily? Perhaps I should wait a couple of weeks to decide? Because there’s no sense in walking 4 miles if 3 does what I need. It saves me time and it saves me effort. Years ago I was using my elliptical at home doing about two hours at a time. I read some research that seemed valid and said I was wasting my time beyond 45 minutes for what I was trying to achieve. So I cut back to 45 minutes. And it seemed just fine

Rachel’s podcast, this episode about Malmedy is interesting. This often happens with her podcasts. It’s better if you just listen to the whole season because it’s stunning, informative and necessary.

I was just thinking about MAGA who can’t seem to see reality, at times “can’t see the forest for the trees.“ I’ve always seen that as relative to the Republican party. They get so involved in the specifics, the trees, they can’t see where they are any more, or what path they are on, which is the forest.

Which is ironic because they’re so into the "end justifies the means". Do whatever it takes  to win, ethics or morality be damned, as long as it harms any or all others other than themselves...of course.

They do seem to get on a path and ideology, and nothing else deters them, even the reality of them being off course, at times. "Mission creep" can be a horribly dangerous thing. Donald Trump (and MAGA) seem to depend a lot on mission creep as well as “throwing spaghetti against the wall to see what sticks.“ This goes back to his “very fine people on both sides“ statement. He throws everything out there and says both sides of the coin, the true and the false, the good and the bad. For others it is seen as insane. When he does that, with his people? It actually supports their belief in his lies evermore.

And that seems to us who are against him, against his lies, against his criminal behaviors and actions, so very obvious.

It’s interesting in this episode of Ultra, how it’s based around a person who saw himself as a Confederate, who was sympathetic to Germany in post-WWII. Who he saw growing up in his American South, how it was once occupied by the North after the Civil War, a similarity with Germany at the end of World War II. And they tossed that guy into the Nuremberg Trial?

I say it’s interesting because so much of the postbellum South held onto their bigotry, racism, and the belief of being right as slaveholders. Having that taken away from them, many remained allergic to those if not merely different from them, certainly people different from them with dark skin.

All of which seems to have been folded into MAGA, either purposely by Donald Trump, Steve Bannon, and Stephen Miller. I assume Trump did it inadvertently, though he incorporates those beliefs purposely by his political "button men". These are despicable people, just as Hillary Clinton had stated. Conflating it to those who support them wasn’t wholly incorrect about them. Or their illiberal, authoritarian mindset which she was 100% correct about.

Starting mile three…

Rachel’s podcast episode I believe may be detailing the beginning of disinformation in American jurisprudence. Which expanded into actual Nazi murderers and war criminals in Germany seeking a way out of their crimes.

While disinformation has probably been around for thousands of years, I would say the Russians, then Soviets, and then Russians again, are the ones who really perfected it. Great Britain dealt with this and them for over 100 years and became the experts in counter-disinformation, and counter-espionage against Russian disinformation efforts. If not countering it, certinly being able to recognize it and act accordingly.

America learned from Great Britain about Russian disinformation. But even if you’re an expert at countering it, it’s difficult to contend with. As we’ve seen with Donald Trump, MAGA, and their Republican party, ever since the early '90s really, we haven't been able to figure it out very well at all.

We may even now be experts about it in our intelligence community which doesn’t translate out to our public media, or our individual citizens, or political parties.

We have historically been careful about this information within political leadership. Politicians were historically careful about what they said because they KNEW it's not hard to start trouble or cause harm or death. Trump seems not to care about that, and the same with his MAGA leadership. It has been evolving to show disinformation can profit those like Donald Trump who just happened to hit the scene at the right time, with the right skills of a juvenile bully, and the right utter lack of ethics.

Willis Everett, the Southerner Rachel is talking about, came up with a disinformation idea for the criminal Nazis, to help get them off from being executed, after having been convicted and the case three times reviewed. He should probably have a statue in a museum of jurisprudence disinformation. Donald Trump'sstatue should be right next to him on the political side of things. But also in a museum of mob bosses, in having gotten away with so much, for so long, and as well as a Russian "useful idiot", who actually made it, somehow to POTUS.

To be clear, you know you’ve gone off the rails when you successfully get Nazis off for war crimes. Or Donald Trump off for his crimes as president. Or pardon someone like President Nixon for his crimes. While Ford told us back then, because I remember it happening, that he pardoned Nixon because he feared it would tear America apart otherwiwse. Looking back on it now, I don’t think he was correct. I think he should’ve let Nixon suffer the consequences. Because he was not looking at America, he was not looking at our future, he was looking at our past and he was looking at America during his presidency. And that was vapidly myopic.

Consider that Hitler’s Nazis and German supporters during and before World War II were national socialists. Today we have Christian nationalists supporting Donald Trump. We have white supremacists supporting Donald Trump. Nazis were white supremacists and the actual gold standard for eugenics. Nazis were also Christians. And I would assume Christian nationalists. While not all Trump supporters are religious bigots or proponents of eugenics, all those types do seem to support him.

It’s good to know that softer, more modern neo-Nazis in America claim to not believe in eugenics. But in enabling them under Donald Trump and giving them free license as we’ve seen comes to harm others they don’t like, even to kill them? I would assume eugenics and such concepts have been on the rise with such ignorant lowlifes since Trump in 2015.

Interesting, I just hit my home block in being done with my 3 miles for the day and a light breeze blew an obvious but not unpleasant odor of patchouly.

One last thing...
Hollywood Horror Museum @horrormuseum
Of all the scenes cut from Aliens, this was the biggest mistake.
Sigourney Weaver was furious and hurt, because it was the whole point of her character. It's often said that cutting this scene is what lost her the Oscar.
But Fox insisted.

On that note, I’ll bid you adieu…and wll leave you with that. It’s noon and time for lunch.

Cheers! Sláinte!

Wednesday, June 19, 2024

Walkabout Thoughts #85

Thoughts & Stream of Consciousness, rough and ready...
Random sane thoughts from an insane mind...from an award-winning filmmaker and author you’ve never heard of, while walking off the remains of long Covid, and listening to podcasts…

Weather for the day… nice day, starting out, 53° overcast cool breeze starting out, back at home 63° walking day Monday, June 17, 2024

First, Podcast Rachel Maddow presents Ultra Ep 2
Then, Marc Maron's WTF? Episode 1548 - Jude Law .

First up...Happy Juneteenth America, marking the day enslaved people in Galveston, Texas in 1865 found out they had been freed when some did nont wish them to be made aware of that. Shameful people, white people. Unbelievable. 
Two years AFTER Pres. Lincolns Emanipation Proclamation.
What the Hell humans...Americans?

Listening to Rachel Maddow's season two of her Ultra podcast. She’s talking about some of the Manhattan Project scientists on the radio back in 1950. One of them says towards the end of the broadcast that by tweaking the H bomb, which America was only starting to work on, they could wipe out an entire city in being 1000 times more powerful than the Hiroshima bomb...tweaking the bomb's casing you would create a cobalt bomb that if exploded in the air, would put a layer of radioactivity around the world that would wipe out humanity. Nice Sunday afternoon talking point.

A very good/disturbing summary of the Trump campaign's orientation of what's going on with them, which hasn't so far made much sense, while his supporters like "this or that" about him, there's something more obvious going on:

Rachel #Maddow on the goal of the GOP, "In real politics, nothing is ever finished. You never take power once and for all. Your enemies are not vanquished. But they [Trump/MAGA] are not trying to win a political contest. They're trying to do away with political contests in the United States."


I posted a meme today about Epstein and Trump, and somebody responded to me telling me something I had not heard. That Trump had barred Epstein from Mar-a-Lago barred Epstein from Mar-a-Lago. I posted back to the guy. “interesting“, and I just now realized I was accepting it as fact. Because it sounded factual. And I decided I wouldn’t post more about Trump on Epstein things. On the other hand, is it true? He supplied a link that goes to a document of way too many references to Epstein. However Copilot offered me this:

"Yes, it is true that Donald Trump barred Jeffrey Epstein from Mar-a-Lago. According to a book entitled “The Grifter’s Club,” Trump banned Epstein after he hit on the teenage daughter of another member. This incident appears to have occurred before Epstein pleaded guilty in 2008 to state criminal charges in Florida, which included paying for sexual services from a 14-year-old girl. The banishment from the club seems to have happened after Epstein was charged with soliciting prostitution by a state grand jury but before his 2008 guilty plea.

"It’s important to note that while Trump did have a falling out with Epstein, he did not publicly reveal the reasons for it at the time. Trump stated that he had not spoken to Epstein for up to 15 years and that he was “not a fan” of his. Before their falling out, Trump and Epstein had been friends for years."

While authoritarianism and fascism are not mental illnesses per se, they are a form of mental illness, or psychosocial illness. as I prefer to refer to it. It’s not in the DSMx but we see it ourselves, clearly. We see it as it has infected MAGA. We see it as MAGA has infected the GOP.

I’ve been using melatonin to get to sleep for a while. I had tried using some pro brain vitamins a while back and needed melatonin to get to sleep. As a teenager, my mind was always racing and I couldn’t sleep at night. I do have ADHD, since birth obviously. So I stopped using those "enhance your brain" vitamins. They worked, by the way. 

But I don’t think you should use melatonin if you can avoid as it's a hormone your body produces from the sun through vitamin D. Which my doctor said I have a deficiency for so I have to take a vitamin D supplement. I just try to get sunlight. I'd read if you get 15 minutes a day, you’re good.

Starting my 2nd mile…

So my son, who manages health food store, is quite knowledgeable about a lot of things (esp., gaming, and physics). He has a logical mind and I trust what he has to say. Regardless I tend to vet my information, but he tends to be right most of the time. One doesn't vet info just to prove or disprove someone correct or not. You also do it to fill in any gaps in info. When you hear something, your mind should see options, and questions, and then go fill those in. That should then offer you connections to other stored information and make connections to a variety of other things. When that happens, it's pleasing. If it doesn't happen, you're not taking in enough information in life. Or haven't, but you can start at any time.

Apparently, he’s become a local CBD expert and doctor's offices will often refer people to him. He used to work at a cannabis store and read a lot. And.. he’s my kid. And... he’s smarter than I am. Anyway, so far the magnesium seems to be working. I may be noticing some other benefits from it, too. Which I’m keeping an eye on and trying to separate out and narrow down to figure out what’s going on. He had said to take it an hour before bedtime. So I did last night and it helped. Also, I started to feel better in other ways that I didn’t expect. My sinuses started to open up, which is unusual for me.

Anyway, he suggested that if I don’t want to take melatonin, he suggests to people to try magnesium glycinate but not its other forms (citrate, oxide, sulfate, etc.). Since 2020 my long Covid issue made it very problematic for me to try anything new. I'd tried fish oil supplement and it almost killed me. So I tried the magnesium over a few days. Realized maybe I could skip a day. I've done a bunch of things to see what the lowest functional levels were (not doctor-prescribed meds, although I found some are functional at lower levels and historically western medicine doesn't adjust appropriately or see that we're not all exactly the same). I like to take as little of anything as possible. We really need to aid our health in the quality of our human experience through food and exercise rather than synthetically manufactured meds. That's not extreme, it's just common sense.

Western medicine has done too much for many decades with synthetic and semi-synthetics drugs/medicines. So yes, it’s best to live clean and healthy.

Rachel's talking about a guy back in the '50s who used to attend "silver shirt" meetings, which was your basic Nazi meeting in America. Can’t help but correlate somehow "silver shirts" with the kind of disgusting insect you might see in a shower at some institution (gym) called a, "silverfish". No, I'm not saying those people are insects, I'm saying my mind word associates.

It’s good for us to know that leading up to World War II, there was an ultra right wing in America who didn’t want us to join in the war. Which would’ve been extremely bad for humanity. It’s interesting to know today we have an extreme right who doesn’t want us to help Ukraine, but instead support Putin. Humanit's new Russian "Nazi" apparently. Putin said he was going to invade Ukraine to help Russian people from the "Ukrainian Nazis", and then immediately, aside from having previously invaded Ukraine (with an ongoing war), became THE "Nazi" himself. So what does that make Americans who support him, who would argue they aren’t, but are not wanting to support Ukraine?

Considering also how Trump tried to blackmail Ukraine when he was president to dig up dirt on Biden, and he really didn’t care if it was falsified.


It’s interesting how dictatorships, authoritarians, and fascists just love claiming how "decadent" the West is while they have a spar economy and miserable human experience for their citizens while what we have to offer is just freedom and protection from our own government and leaders. While Donald Trump’s MAGA is in support of those dictators, authoritarians, and fascists, not so much the freedom of American or Western democratic citizens. Just those who see us as decadent, foul, or degenerate. 

This whole thing is pretty simple. The Trump side is negative. Those who oppose him are positive. Those attracted to negative support Trump and like him and some love him. And some worship him. And what the holy fuck is that about? That's not American. That's authoritarian. That's a cult. A cult of personality. It's...slimy.

Here’s an easy way to judge yourself. If your beliefs, or your tribe's beliefs, or your political party's beliefs, support the human experience of just you, or them and does not hold up supporting the human experience of all, you have a problem. You the a problem. Your “tribe “is the problem. And all claims made that it’s anyone else? Is just a mechanism, a tool to support the worst in human belief systems. Just sayin'...

Oh, I hope any fathers out there had a good Father’s Day. Both my kids called me and I got to talk to them. The one who I hear from almost daily, actually daily, lives furthest away. The married one, I don’t hear from or see much anymore. But they’re live stage performers and have jobs and I know they’re busy. For those who resent the fact that all they get from their kids is a phone call or a card, at least they care enough to do something. 

Just consider all those fathers (or mothers), who do deserve more from their kids and get nothing. Or their kids hate them or have mental illness or drug addiction, or are lost in things like psychosocial illnesses, like fascism, or MAGA. Then, of course, there’s those parents who don’t deserve anything from their kids, but instead owe their kids for how they raise them so poorly. It’s sad for those kids who still do stay in contact with them.

My mother was just too toxic to deal with in her later years (like the last half of her life). My siblings and I struggled to deal with her and would take turns dealing with her for a while until we couldn’t take it, then passed her off to another one of us. A nightmare round-robin of dealing with Mom. Part of that was her many years of practicing victimhood and taking heavy prescription drugs...opiates.

That round-robin thing went on until I got divorced in 2002. Before that, my wife and I were briefly seeing a therapist until she quit going. At some point, our therapist, listening to me about the situation with my mother and how I regretted my wife having to deal with any of it, told me, “You realize you can cut someone out of your life if they’re being toxic? “ I said, "No I don’t realize that. She’s my mother." And she said, "Look. I give you permission. You don't have to go through that." I just sat there, stunned.

I remember my wife sitting on the couch next to me. Just looking at me. I’d love to have known what she was thinking. But that was close to the last session she attended.

And so the next time my mother called me at work, about some imagined slight by someone or life, I explained it all to her and said, "I’m done." And I pretty much didn’t talk to her again until she died over 15 years later.

I remember once when our youngest brother was diagnosed with leukemia in 1974 (he actually had liver cancer, which they later correctly diagnosed and he died in Manhattan in June 1974). We left Mom and our brother in his hospital room at Tacoma's Children's Hospital and went down to the cafeteria for a break, a breather, some coffee. Sitting around a table talking, our sister summed it all up. She said none of us would ever be able to relax until both of our parents, mom, central to us all (as we had different dads) and her husband, our stepfather, and youngest brother's dad...both died.He died (with Alzheimer's) about 10 years ago a few miles from me at the Retsil Veteran's Home. She died about 6, in Tacoma. Our sister was there with her. And she had been right. Finally, we all felt relieved. 100%. Family is love, family is life. Family is pain. But we do, we can, have some control over that.

For those who are in toxic relationships that make you want to kill yourself, or the other person...don’t. Just eliminate them from your life. It’s not easy. But it’s doable.

I’ve been saying for years, regarding suicide, something that helped me in rough times, to think this whenever one wants to kill oneself, just consider walking out the door and never coming back. While your friends and loved ones will suffer from never hearing from you again, they’re gonna go through that anyway, and worse, if you kill yourself. In this way, in vanishing (leave a note or something though, this isn't a vindictive thing, you are caused pain, and you don't want them to be caused pain because of you), you'd do them a service, and by starting a new life, in moving out of state or whatever, you’ve done yourself and maybe humanity a service.

Starting 3rd mile…

I’m pretty tired of my only exercise being these walks. But there’s not much else to do and the weather has sucked. But it’s getting better. Haven’t felt great the past couple of days. So I thought this walk would start out kind of uncomfortable. But it’s been just fine. I’m getting enough of these 5 mile walks and I’m getting to an equilibrium or something. Feels good to get some exercise.

What the hell is a "hog's head" shaved haircut? Rachel just played a 1940s radio broadcast where the reporter was describing some Nazi's haircut. Looked it up, I can find nothing on it. Maybe it was just that reporter's affectation.

I’ve been thinking about this. I need to ask my friend Ash Black, who has an interview show on public access TV here. My friends, Kelly and Pat, and I were his first three interviews when he started his show. But I never see our reruns. I mean every so often he interviews two or three people. Then you see that new interview on. And they play that three or four times each, before the next new interview. But they haven’t been playing them from the beginning and sometimes his show is not on. So what’s with that? Run reruns. 
[so I asked him, but he had no response on the rerun issue. But he did get nominated for Best of Kitsap (our county) for several things, best citizens, best show ("Afternoons with Ash Black" on BKat TV)...so pretty damned cool!]

I had thought about going out for lunch yesterday for Father’s Day. I looked at some restaurants online. Thought about the menus. Thought about the cost, which isn’t a big issue with me, but having been raised with very little money, you know that is the rest of your life. Thought about how many people might be out taking their dad to lunch, and then I remembered I had a bag of themed salad that I had bought. Some Thai cashew salad. I had previously mentioned I was trying to lose weight. I’m recently at about 230 and need to knock off at least 10 pounds, pretty quick. Rough winter...

Anyway, I got that bag of salad out, threw in some frozen shrimp I had in the freezer from Costco, added some smoked cheese I had for a cheese, meat and crackers meal the other day, and some other things, and ended up with a pretty tasty Father’s Day lunch. 

I watched "Monkey Man" on Peacock+ streaming it was pretty good, different. I like that actor, Dev Patel. This time he helped write it and directed it. He’s come a long way from "Slumdog Millionaire". Which I thought was a good flick, though some people called poverty porn. Maybe so.

I couldn’t really get all that into the "Monkey Man" movie. I mean I watched it, it was good, had some very clever stuff in it. Rotten Tomatoes gave it 88%. after watching it, I went back to watching Shetland (84% on Rotten Tomatoes) on BritBox. I really like shows like that in Ireland or Scotland or on an island over there. Makes me wanna go back to Ireland. 

The other day I watched “Blue Lights “a police procedural set in Belfast. Sian Brooke, the lead female actor was the short-lived wife of the king in season one of House of the Dragon. Of which season two began the other night. Been looking forward to it. I just recently binged the entire first season again. And I don’t know, for some reason I thought it was a good opening series 2 episode. Either getting their stride or I was just lowering the bar because I wanted to see a new episode.

I had gotten a seven-day free trial with BritBox that I have to cancel or keep for $9/month. I don’t, know I could end up keeping it. There’s some great stuff on there.

About House of the Dragon, I will say that I never much cared for Matt Smith as Doctor Who. But I think he found his place on this series. He plays it perfectly.

Oh, I stumbled onto Le Mans yesterday. The live version as it was being streamed on Peacock+. They have so many cameras and stuff now it’s almost like watching a movie or a video game but it’s real and in the moment. If somebody dies you’re finding out with everybody else. I’m not much into watching cars go around a track but it’s pretty cool at that level. I had it on in the background as I was editing my last blog.

One driver's rearview mirror snapped on one side of its double brackets, holding it to the inside top of the cockpit. I thought, that’s not gonna work. He pulls in for a pitstop, but they couldn’t fix it. A new driver got in. They said it’s an LED screen so it’s not too bad, although it was vibrating, bouncing around a lot. About every other second, you can seethe driver look at the mirror and then out the windshield. I thought that was pretty cool that they’re using an LED screen on the rearview mirror. I never heard of that before. If it had been a mirror, it really would have been unusable.

On Rachel‘s podcast, she’s talking about a Nazi sympathizer who ended up on the Nazi Nuremberg trials of World War II. Even though his coworkers had complained to the FBI, he still got the job and went to Germany to work on the trial. This is a good example of, how things can happen. Donald Trump has, for his entire life, fallen through the cracks.

Fascism & authoritarianism can perpetually serve as a potential ‘grout’ within the framework of democracy. If not vigilantly guarded against, they possess the power to topple that very framework. Their most destructive actions, often occurring out of sight, to disable the system in unforeseen ways. Sadly, this is often misunderstood & unforeseen by those most committed to such ideological changes.

Starting mile four…

Also starting WTF? Marc Maron podcast episode with Jude Law.

As for Rachel’s podcast season 2 episode 2 of Ultra… Wow. It’s really important that pretty much everybody in America listens to this. It’s about our history in the 40s and 50s. But it’s extremely relevant when you look around today about what some people think is funny or not a big deal, but is actually a huge deal.

Marc said he finally won something. He won Cat Dad of the Year from PE TA.

Marc trying to figure out what his cat thinks when he’s gone... He’s up in Vancouver for I think four months total and he's back home on a break wondering what his cat thinks after he’s been gone a few days: "Well He’s dead and that’s over." He said, "I don’t think the cat's that sociopathic but I’m sure his brain processes differently." No doubt. I would say it’s more like when you leave your cat for a few days, it just notices an energy missing in the environment. And it adjusts. 

Then when you come home, it triggers that pattern and it’s an energy of familiarity and things that have been habituated. It feels this rush of energy in the house and a familiarity of returning energy and some habituation and processes that are familiar. I suspect they quickly get tired of it and go back to their normal routine. Which I guess makes them perfect pets for someone who comes and goes?

Just don’t get a parrot that lives 125 years where, if you don’t give it enough attention, it starts pulling out feathers and becoming neurotic. Or when you die and it goes to another owner, it can’t easily handle the replacement.

Marc talking about watching and re-watching movies. Every day on my DVR I scan, while having coffee in the morning, what's on the paid movie channels I have and what’s on local TV between 8 PM and 11 PM that night and select anything I find interesting.

The other day I came across the movie “The Quiet American“. I liked the 2002 remake with Michael Caine though I hadn't realized it was a remake. This one is with Audie Murphy filmed in 1958 about 1952 Saigon. Audie Murphy is labeled by the characters as a "young, very young man." He was 28. The actor. Michael Redgrave is the lead. I’ve only seen 16 minutes of it.

I see Michael Redgrave, I think Michael Rennie. Who was the alien "Klatuu" in the film I saw as a young kid, “The Day the Earth Stood Still" (1951) on TV. Klatuu, with his robot Gort, and their planet's humanitarian extraterrestrial concept for Earth, saw us as dangerous. Because we are. We do seem to tend toward the self-destructive. People might remember that movie by its most famous catchphrase “Klaatu Barada Nikto“ which was spoken to the Gort to not destroy the planet when Klatuu got shot.

In the 1978 Fantastic Films article "The Language of Klaatu", Tauna Le Marbe, the magazine's Alien Linguistics Editor, attempted to translate the phrase. Her literal translation was "Stop Barbarism, (I have) death, bind;" and her free translation was "I die, repair me, do not retaliate".

Uh huh. Seems disingenuous. As Klatuu is the alien's name, seems more like the translation would be: "Klatuu (says) stand down."

Anyway, I’ve seen Rennie in a few other things, and I always had a fine place in my heart for him because of that movie. His character, actually. I once saw a really old interview of him on the set of some movie and I had to come to realize, he’s just an actor, not that wonderful character from that film.

As for "The Quiet American", it was a very interesting perspective of a 1958 Hollywood version of Saigon that looked a little too clean and Hollywoodish.

Apparently, Marc was in a movie about the talk show radio host who got murdered by some white supremacists decades ago. A guy named Alan Berg in Colorado was murdered by some idiot white supremacists from my Washington state. One of those criminals was tracked down on Whidbey Island and fought back, ending up burned up and dead. Eastern Washington has a higher concentration of conservatives who, along with Idaho and eastern Oregon, way too many white supremacists. Racists consider the dead murderer a martyr.

As for eastern Washington, when I was stationed at Fairchild Air Force Base 15 miles outside of Spokane, Washington, a lot of the guys who were hunters and had lived in the area for a while, refused to go hunting up north because of all the crazy people white supremacists.

I was taken back then by a recent acquaintance on base, to a white supremacist compound over in the Idaho Hills back in 1978 and it scared the hell out of my wife and myself. Especially when they bragged how the local police wouldn't come on their property. All very nice congenial racists, some of them wearing faux Nazi uniforms. Which one said, when I asked about that uniform, said, "No, they’re not Nazi uniforms, because those are a different color." Other than the color it all looked the same to me and they saluted like Nazis. Anyway, we didn’t go back. And the whole reason for the visit was to attend the guy's church. Which just turned out to be a church where they ranted about racist stuff.

So Marc said in playing that Jewish talk show host, most of his scenes were getting gunned down along with a few on-mic scenes. Jude Law is lead in it. Jude told Marc he’s seen it and it’s good. Marc was complaining he hadn’t seen it yet but is looking forward to seeing it on one of the movie channels or streaming networks, as soon as it comes out.

I want to see it too. A book came out about Alan Berg and those white supremacists back in 1987 when I read that book: Talked to Death: The Life and Murder of Alan Berg.
Good book. Eye-opener at the time. I was very unhappy to find out how many people from the south, after the confederacy fell, moved to the Pacific Northwest. Especially Idaho, Eastern Oregon and Eastern Washington. Apparently, there’s more than a few extreme-right up here in the Olympic Peninsula of Washington. That's up north from where I’m at. 

Sadly my adult trans offspring lives up there. They have some stories that aren’t fun to hear about minding their own business and being harassed. I don’t understand why people can’t just leave people alone. If you don’t like them, go somewhere else, look the other way, move on, and let it go. Let other citizens just live their lives. As they do you. Change the channel. Listen to a different radio station. 

Try not to get radicalized because… did you know fear lowers your IQ? Which the Republican Party, especially MAGA pushes out so much? Fear. Anger. Hatred. Bigotry. What did Trump say? "I love the uneducated." Why do you think?

It's not complicated

Marc says we can train our parents once an adult. Well sure. Unless there’s mental illness or drugs involved. But he said it’s worked for him. Didn’t work for me, or my siblings.

I remember getting into a big argument with my mom in the hallway upstairs at the house. I grew up in, at least since fifth grade. Before that we moved like every year around Tacoma, or to Spain, or to Philadelphia, or back to Tacoma in 1960.

She kept treating me like I was her young kid. She said, "I’m your mom and you’ll always be my kid to me." Hey, that’s fine but I’m an adult. I told her I graduated high school. I’d been in and out of the US Air Force. Responsible for a lot of government property and people's lives. I’d been married AND divorced. And still, she was treating me like I’m 12. It’s really annoying for an adult to have to deal with that.

Her response? "Well, you will always be my child." Kind of missing he point again, mom.

Sigh…

Starting my 5th mile…

Oh damn, Marc mentions the time his orthopedic surgeon father backed over his foot. This was after the ski trip where his top-of-the-line safety ski boot binders kept falling off his boots, so his dad tightened them down too much and he ended up getting a spiral fracture. So of course his dad gave him half body cast, and later a leg cast, which is what he remembers having when he saw George Carlin on stage.

I just mention that because my oldest (then in jr high) and I got home years ago and I was backing up the SUV and I heard a scream because apparently I had backed over his foot. I mean, it wasn’t my fault. He standing outside of the back of the SUV on the right and he had his foot behind the back tire. Either not smart or not very aware of his environment, which I raised my kids to be. Anyway, he yelled at me. I felt really bad and I apologized, but it wasn’t my fault. As I told him. Which didn't help the situation. He was fine, luckily. But he never had his foot under a car again.

Reminds me, we got our adult German Shepherd castrated because his aggression was getting too intense. He almost went through our back glass door one time because he saw another dog.

His scrotum swelled up for a  of days and my son came in during that, old enough at this point to drive the car, he had just been out somewhere and had come in and told me something and... accidentally stepped on the dog's swollen scrotum. So without thinking, the dog whips around and bites him on the hand. The dog would never have done that otherwise.

It put a couple of holes in that piece of flesh between your thumb and forefinger known as the purlicue,  the “thenar web space, or the "web of the thumb." Apparently, it hurt. His reaction was to want to punch the dog. He quickly stepped forward, really angry and in pain while the dog was sitting up by me near the couch, where I was sitting. I quickly put my arms around the dog's neck, with his head on my shoulder, and put my hand up to calm my son down and said, "Hey, don’t hurt the dog. It was an accident. He felt bad as soon as he did it." 

He backed off, quickly realizing what all had happened, and embarrassed, sort of yelled at me, "It really hurt!" I said, "Well, how would you feel if you just had your testicles cut off, your scrotum was swollen and somebody stepped on it? He didn’t mean to bite you." And  my son immediately realized he made a mistake. Actually, both of them had. It was a weird situation. Anyway, he calmed down. I sent him off to drive to the doctor. He came back later saying he was fine, and it was all OK. But it was an interesting experience.

Now Marc saying, "You've gotta find the good things of your parents that you inherited and lean into those."

I’ve always done that. But I’ve also tried to counter the bad things I received from my parents. When I was younger, my mom told me stories about my dad and how he could be jealous. I don't doubt somehow she may have, even if inadvertently, or innocently, aggravated that somehow. It led to some interesting stories she told me about him. They were divorced by the time I was three. So all through my teen years on, I was very aware of feeling jealous about or over a girlfriend. Or a wife.

Marc says he finally caved because of fans asking for him to do it, so he interviewed a guy from the band, Phish. So that’s upcoming.

This just in... Abortion is a human right!
Another's religion shouldn't govern everyone else.
Donald Trump's mother should have had that right too.
We need a time machine.

Marc's also talking about how his dad was manic at times and when he graduated (high school or college? I missed that), his dad didn’t show up because he was in one of those stages and it wasn’t a great day.

Which made me reflect on my high school and college graduations. My only close relative to graduate college was my cousin, my mom‘s sister‘s daughter who I’m three months older than her. She graduated from Eastern in I think Medical Lake, Washington. Just outside Spokane. We were there in/near Spokane together at the same time for a while when she was going to college and I was in the Air Force. So we hung out together a couple of times. 

I wondered if I went to her college graduation. During mine she was in Europe backpacking, as my youngest did decades later through Europe, twice. 

So this magnesium I’m taking to help me sleep. Since it’s good for your nerves, I mean your physical nerves in your body, I wonder if this would’ve helped during my long Covid in the worst part of it? The problem is I took some things that should’ve helped me and it made me feel like I was dying. Because that’s how weird long Covid can be.

Since I’m all over the place on this blog all the time… I mean, at least I use Podcasts as a founding element… maybe I should’ve titled or change it, since I’m pretty much over long Covid now, “random insane thoughts from a same mind“? Or adversely, "random thoughts from an insane mind“?
So now Marc's talking to Jude Law on the podcast and they’re talking about the film they were both in. Jude is singing Marc'c praises for the character he played in the legitimacy he brought to the role. Jude‘s latest movie, I think is "Firebrand", about him playing Henry the Eighth. I saw some video of it and it looks pretty interesting. Jude did some interesting things in playing that character. Trying to be authentic, he walks weird and he needed an obesity suit and a "stunt butt" as Marc puts it. Jude tells a story about going to a perfumer friend to have him make him up a really bad smell since, he said, at that stage in Henry the Eighth's life he had to have smelled bad from rotting flesh, or I don’t know what. He told the Director about it and the Director loved the idea so much, to evoke a response from the actors, he was spraying it everywhere.

I get the "method concept" of acting, but it just seems like abuse to the actors and the crew.

OK, my 5 miles completed for the day. My left foot aches a little bit, but I could hardly walk on it the last walk and overall I feel pretty great. so I think I may have gotten back up to my fitness level I was at last fall. Between where I live, my location, and the weather in the northwest, I tell you this is killing me trying to keep fit. I definitely wish I lived someplace by the ocean, with flater land, and nicer weather year-round. But all those locations have potable water issues or way too damn many people.

A couple years ago, my cousin‘s best friend and my ex-girlfriend from high school, drove her RV down to Tucson, Arizona and wanted to live there. And I said, "Yeah, I’ve lived in Phoenix before and it’s great down there. But too many crazy conservatives there… which she said where she was it wasn’t like that… I continued saying, "You do have to be aware of the water situation as it's getting bad down there and only gonna get worse." Next thing I knew she had moved to Missouri or Louisiana or somewhere. Now I think she’s back up here. So I think that pretty much says it all…

On that note, I’ll bid you adieu.
And leave you with that. 
And soon it's time for lunch.

Cheers! Sláinte!





Thursday, July 6, 2023

Walkabout Thoughts #44

My thoughts, Stream of consciousness, rough and ready, while walking off long Covid and listening to podcasts…June 26, 2023 Monday

Weather for the day…yes

Podcast for the day “Deja News” by Rachel Maddow and Davy Aronson, "Episode 3: "The Meanest, Dirtiest, Low-Down Stuff""


Considering Rachel Maddow’s podcast of Deja news for this week about Republican voter suppression (when will America get tired by their exhausting antics??) do we have and why don’t we have, a whole section of intimidation laws to literally put these people in prison when they pull their crap? Laws in such a way that would stop their bullshit. I don’t mean capital punishment for voter suppression, I would reserve that for former presidents like Donald Trump, for things he did and is still doing.

What should LBJ have and the Democratic Party done to neutralize Republican illiberal newspaper voter suppression attack ads in 1964 regarding a fake, non-existent, "Negro Protective Group", who told blacks not to vote or you could end up in jail? This is America. We ARE a liberal democracy, still, and regardless what the Right keeps trying to do.

Also, you can take much or most of what Republicans claim about Democrats and dig into what they’re saying to find it’s really indicative about Republicans projecting onto any or all others to distract and obstruct the view of what they’re actually doing and what they really believe in. Autocracy, apparently.

Regarding pro-Putinist propaganda by Putin apologists claiming there are Nazis in Ukraine, forgetting their Russian war criminal president's invasion of another country. For the record, there are zero Nazis in Ukraine. However, their are those of neo-Nazi mindsets who have invaded Ukraine from Russia (and some of those type living IN Ukriane, as in any country). When Russia leaves Ukraine, the neo-Nazis will have for the most part, left. Attacking another country and committing war crimes is not an excuse for perceived, or potential neo-Nazis in another country made up from a mostly democratic majority (again, as in many countries)… As there seem to be in every country around the world. Every country has right wing autocratic extremists, some of whom find titillation in political fetishism in absorbing and presenting the neo Nazi’s nonsense. In our country, they tend to be Republicans and conservatives. All of them have been misled, but also cherry pick, as the religious do, in selectively ignoring reality, and chosing to be a patently as stupid as possible in the face of reality and thoroughly against the facts. Everyone's facts, not just "alternative facts", a term promoted by Kelly Anne Conway (divorced now from her more liberal Republican husband) deep in the MAGA slurry of Donald Trump's wake.

Regarding Rachel’s podcast this week and JFK winning over Nixon in 1960...It begs the question, if Nixon had won rather than JFK would he have turned into what he later did when he finally became president? I suspect he would have. Because that’s what happens with people of weak ego and poor character. Not to mention, with a conservative orientation and a Republican to boot. Which we’ve seen again and again. George W. Bush. Obviously and ultimately in Donald J Trump, criminal FPOTUS45.

As a political party, when you realize not enough people are going to vote for your candidate, and your response to that is, "how do we keep the other parties voters from voting against us", and you then fall on an answer such as, "we will suppress their votes," or worse, "...in anyways possible", yes… your party has "jumped that shark." You have then stepped out of an illiberal democracy into an autocratic party and one inevitably of sedition. And when you're in that GOP and Trump MAGA today, you’re moving into stochastic terrorism and your are then, you have then, fully left this country, the great American experiment and democracy itself. You're an Autocrat. At some point they are, and you have become, criminals. Where the only question of the rest of us at hand will be... how to prove it with evidence in court, and execute justice?

I should contact Eagle Harbor books and the book seller downtown and see if they would take maybe two of my books for free, welcome to sell them and keep the money, and if they want more... let me know?

Why isn’t there a law that says every state must have enough polling places, free and protected, where if you’re standing in line for longer than an hour, then the state should lose money and if they don't have money to have enough polling places, then federal money would be supplied giving states and their illiberal conservative leadership (who are the ones pulling this crap) will absolutely have no reason for THEIR voter suppression actions. And so on and so forth… remember 1964 presidential election's Republican operation, which Hubert Humphrey said should be called "Operation Evil Lie", which was pure and simple, voter suppression by the conservative party.

1964 presidential election was lopsided with Barry Goldwater losing on the Republican side and winning only later in 1968 with the eventual nightmare Nixon with an actual criminal VPOTUS (GOP took decades to advance to nominating an actual criminal for POTUS in Donald Trump). One being his home state of Arizona, with another five being States where the black vote had already long been suppressed. "Operation Eagle Eye" by Republicans wasn’t even needed in those five states because of Jim Crow laws already suppressing the black vote and the black community in general, and in so many other ways.

As we now know, if voter suppression by the right had never been utilized there would’ve been very few Republican presidents in the past 50 years.

I do realize that the 60s and 70s Republican voter suppression efforts and their "Operation Eagle Eye" did set the foundation and building blocks up for today’s illiberal “democratic free“ elections so subverted by subversive and seditious Republicans. At times, aided by America’s foreign enemies, via social media, or whatever they could come up with. With other issues such as dark money, toxic conservative, a stacked SCOTUS and federal courts, and illiberal Gerrymandering. None of that is news.

Here’s something else to consider… We hear a lot from the right about how bad the left is. We hear how the Democratic Party ruins our economy. Regardless of the fact that Republican presidents take us into wars, leave us with seriously depleted budgets and massive debt, and Democrats always seem to be the ones cleaning it up every time. But if Republicans would stop this nonsense and act as liberal democrats (lower "d"), which this country is... a liberal democratic republic… IF they would work with the other side, does it matter if they never win, if they get things done that they really do want (for the country), and not just what they want, for their always winning in their sadly toxic, anti-American, "corporate thought" agendas? If what they want is actually useful to America and Americans, and not just to their wealthy and corporate? If they would work FOR the American good and not just for Themselves? The GOP has degenerated into a party of actors who play out roles for pure power and notoriety and greed. They're propaganda is disinformed and autocratically subverted, their electorate in chaos and confusion, so now they feel like Russians who don’t know what the hell they’re voting, for. Don't we really just want to be left alone and reclaim what it is to be patriotic? Until finally they end up voting against themselves. And then Russia’s case strengthens up and we find ourselves again invading other countries (Remember "W" and Iraq?). how many of Americans mistakes in other countries are from toxic capitalism? From the greedy and conservative and the Republican? Oh surely, there were some Democrats and independents involved. But that doesn’t resolve the Right from there fundamentals and foundation in toxic conservatism. 

It has a little to do with Conservatism anymore.
Republicans: "Be very good at selling bad ideas."
Democrats: "Be very bad at selling good ideas, political effort, democratic spin"
Republicans: Fraud, Republican lies & disinformation.
Democrats: Truth and facts.
Republicans: Decency for corporations and the wealthy.
Democrats: Decency for all American citizens, especially those who are people and not business or industry while maintaining a healthy business and industry.
Republicans: Enhance faith in God and religion and autocracy. God’s autocratic by the way. The pursuit of happiness of their orientation or their beliefs or their institutions... against all others.
Democrats Enhance faith in democracy to allow a country mixed with many cultures and religions and non-religions. The pursuit of happiness, not just the conservative pursuit of their own happiness.

"Operation Eagle Eye" slogan: "To restore confidence in America’s elections"...but basically, just spew disingenuous disinformation.

Rachel Maddow's Deja News podcast should be required listening in every high school and every junior high, every college and every Congress. on TV and forced onto Fox News and all conservative media.

Attorney Jim Brosnahan, who testified against William Rehnquist in that attorneys active voter suppression action in 1964, said today on the podcast that, “Anyone's vote taken away is a democratic sin. “ restricting any citizens vote is committing a serious concern and should be dealt with." Citizens lose their vote when they going to prison. Unless it is under conditions of treason, no one should ever lose their vote. No one's vote should ever be suppressed, the more votes, the better.

Next podcast "Axios today"-
Prigozhin is not a hero, he’s a "Blackwater" type mercenary group type leader, although Betsy DeVos's brother, Eric Prince is no angel either… But basically a mob boss as some claim as a Putin capo. Putin, after all, being the mob boss. In America, we have something similar with a more cowardly, less, intelligent just as media savvy, maybe more media savvy than Putin, mob boss in Donald Trump. Both countries have the delusionally propagandized and disinformed who follow those cretins over the cliff to enjoy a plummet of their country into death and despair. Chaos and despair and apathy being the rule of the day for both those leader's followers. And remember, Putin’s capo and leader of the Wagner group, started a 10 hour march to Moscow to the capital and stopped 4/5 of the way there. There’s very much speculation about what Putin will do to his capo for this sedition. What does a mafia boss do to an ill acting capo? Well? That depends on how integral he is to his wealth and power acquisition and retention model that a mafia boss has in place. Unless that model, as in Putin‘s model, as in the failure of the Ukrainian war so far, according to his 'three days to overtake Ukraine" model, he now has in its place.

Finishing up my 4th mile, then starting on my fifth and final mile for the day. My long Covid "walkabout thought" for the day being solidly executed. If I keep this up at three or four days out of every week, while the weather hasn’t been helping, although it does get better heading into summer, That would mean every week I am alternately doing 15 or 20 mile walks total. Which my much younger, VA health doctor said is way better than anything he’s doing. But, such are the joys of retirement... and long Covid.

55 million people in the south east west to Mississippi are under a heat warning as of today. Texas is in some southern locations in the triple digits and so far doing well because they’ve applied some renewable energy sources and batteries which so far are functioning nominally. Even against all the bullshit and nonsense that crippled state's governor has been putting out since the storm, two years ago. Republicans are good at one thing. Ignoring reality and not being proactive. Being worried about this moment and this moment, alone but not about their citizens, long-term.

These temperatures in the south are as far north as Oklahoma and Kansas, have been proven to be at least five times more related to human induced climate change, and denial of this at this point really is criminal, because people are dying.

Gay and Black minorities and LGBTQ+ people are here. They always have been. To deny that is to deny America and democracy. So if you’re against all that or whining about how you won’t "pull yourself up by your own bootstraps", a typical Republican comment towards those who are incapable of doing that, then it’s not about those you hate or those you speak out against, it's yourself and your group of whiners, who refuse to go out and succeed, as any American would, regardless of what obstacles are against them. Because that’s American. And whining and abusing others or denigrate any others to make it look better, well that’s autocracy and that kind of makes you a rat bastard.

Next podcast, “Cork Today“, a podcast from Cork, Ireland, where I spent a few days and a lovely time back in 2015. I so wanna go back to Ireland. Sadly, my Irish roots are too well established for a dual passport. So, thanks for that Ireland.

The podcast is talking with somebody about a herbal remedy to help you sleep. It’s got so much stuff in it. How do you want to think about taking it. I’ve tried to keep my stress levels down since high school when I went in the hospital for it. When the doctors (3 neurosurgeons) said…(and this would’ve been winter spring 1973)… "Here’s a script for Valium 5 mg, now goodbye. We would suggest you move out of your parent's house from what your mother told us." Weeks later I graduated at 17 and moved out with a job into an apartment. Then life was good. The headaches stopped. My stress levels dropped. Now today in retirement at 67, 68 end of August, I do my best to get exposure to sunlight. 15 minutes today, even five help with sleeping at night in regenerating one's melatonin. Yesterday, I had spaghetti and meatballs for lunch with two glasses of wine, testing out my long Covid healing. I did well. But I woke up at 12:30 a.m. and thought what the hell… So I took half of a 5 mg melatonin...just enough to put me to sleep and keep me there, until  at7:30 AM I woke up. I feel pretty good today. Getting the exercise definitely is helping. I think the thing that helped me most in healing from long Covid was getting exercise, and sunlight. Although both can work against you, until you hit a certain degree of healing with that insidious condition.

I’d have to say as far as difficulty sleeping, all my life, especially in high school, I think it was more about ADHD and my mind running at hyper speed on multiple levels. As well as working nights through HS. As a snack bar drive-in theater worker and then snack bar manager. How long after work, late at night it took me to get to sleep, to get up early to go back to school, or after graduating, to work? I think my sleep was better after graduating HS, not having to go to school at day and then work nights. I figured I usually got a few hours sleep in HS. I would come home after work at maybe midnight, go to bed and have to be at school by 8:30 AM. I can remember many times looking at the clock before I fall asleep at 5 AM. I would just lay there in bed with my mind racing and thoughts spinning about everything... not all bad, just a mind that wanted to work 24 hours a day. My mother liked staying up all night. My older brother, who has said he thinks he got all the worst of our mom from her, well? I think maybe I left most of that out and get most of the best from her. Anyway, he felt he was a night person too. But we are day people as a race and require Vitamin D and sunlight and our schedules are ruled by that. I have to say really in much of my earlier my life, I did prefer being up at night. But life and having children has a way of rectifying that. Though, bending you to it, will wear on you to make you feel a little crazy at times.

The Cork podcast is talking about how hot it is there and how hard it is to sleep when you’re hot. People don’t have air conditioners there or some do bu no money for electricity. Cork's not a highly prosperous town, but it is a very lovely town. So they suggest curtains closed during the day to keep the place cool, windows open at and night sleep with a sheet only. Poor People's air conditioning. I remember those days.

Now they’re talking about a listener question about artichokes lowering cholesterol, and if there may be something involved there. The person is on a Staten who asked the question, and so am I. I’ve added eating two avocados a week. I don’t know if it’s helped or not, but they are tasty. Maybe I'll add artichokes, I do like them too. 

I'm editing this today, Wednesday, July 5, 2023 and it's my little brother's birthday... who died of liver cancer in 1975, two weeks before today, back then, He just missed making it to 15. His doctor in Manhattan said then, that maybe in 5 years, they will be able to do a liver transplant. Five years to the week, they did their first successful one. Happy birthday, little bro...

And with that...

Cheers! Sláinte!