Tuesday, January 13, 2026

The Contagion Presidency: Why Trump Needed America to Stop Trusting America

It occurs to me that what Donald Trump did leading up to his first election was not accidental, mysterious, or misunderstood. It was deliberate. He discovered a constituency already primed for resentment—Americans who distrusted their own government, who felt ignored by institutions, who believed vague conspiracies about “deep state” enemies rather than acknowledging the often-unremarkable reality of career civil servants—and he told them their anger was righteous. He validated their suspicions not by solving them, but by amplifying them.


They didn’t simply elect a president.

They elected someone who promised revenge on their behalf.

They believed his disdain would be directed outward—at elites, at liberals, at immigrants, at whomever they’d been told to fear. What they didn’t realize was that Trump’s contempt has always been indiscriminate. It extends to anyone who refuses to kneel: opponents, allies, the press, sacrifice, law, democratic norms, and eventually even his own voters.

He did not drain the swamp. He replumbed it.
He flooded it. Then he built a second pool for the corrupt and the confused to wallow in.

The only reason America did not fully collapse under his first presidency is because institutional guardrails existed: military officers who refused illegal orders, ethics officials who still believed laws mattered, career bureaucrats who quietly continued serving the country even when attacked for doing so. In the end, many within his own administration functioned less as staff and more as containment.

That should terrify us.

Because when a president must be protected from himself in order to protect the nation, democracy is no longer functioning normally. It is surviving.

He left office, but accountability never truly arrived. So he returned. And what did he do with his second chance? He removed competence. He tore out every remaining safeguard. He replaced experience with loyalty tests and surrounded himself with sycophants who understood that their survival depended not on serving the American people, but on serving him.

This leads to the essential question:

Why would Trump want chaos, distrust, and institutional failure?

Because in a functioning democracy, power belongs to institutions.
In a broken democracy, power belongs to the man who breaks them.

If Americans trust the press, he cannot rewrite truth.
If Americans trust elections, he cannot declare losses to be victories.
If Americans trust courts, he cannot dismiss legal accountability as political persecution.
If Americans trust government itself, they do not need him to “save” them from it.

So he attacks everything that is not him.

He undermines civic trust because distrust centralizes power.
He delegitimizes expertise because expertise limits him.
He polarizes because division creates dependency.
He normalizes abnormality because outrage fatigue eventually becomes acceptance.

This is not ideology.
This is not conservatism.
This is a survival strategy.

It is deeply personal and ruthlessly effective.

A psychologically fragile leader cannot coexist with strong institutions. A narcissistic leader cannot tolerate independent thought. A leader obsessed with image cannot admit error, and therefore must destroy the credibility of anyone who points it out. This is political authoritarianism powered by emotional insecurity. That is a dangerous combination.

The tragedy is not simply what Trump did to his base.
It is what he did to the entire country.

He did not merely exploit distrust.
He constructed a political reality in which distrust is the default state of civic life.

He turned cynicism into an organizing principle.
He made disbelief in democracy itself a partisan loyalty test.

And it worked. Not only within his movement, but beyond it. Even Americans who despise him now question institutions more than ever. The damage is not contained; it is ambient. We are living inside a psychological climate created by one man’s ego and broadcast across a nation.

Mary Trump, a psychologist who knows both the pathology and the person, has warned repeatedly that this is not simply political harm. It is psychological contagion. It rewires how people perceive truth, identity, belonging, and power. Once learned, distrust is not easily unlearned. It lingers. It metastasizes. It becomes cultural.

That is his legacy.

Not accomplished policy.
Not vision.
Not leadership.

His legacy is corrosion.
His legacy is destabilized civic faith.
His legacy is a democracy taught to hate itself from within.

America is now facing a reckoning—not just with Trump, but with the environment he cultivated. Removing him alone does not fix the damage. It does not restore trust. It does not rebuild respect for reality. It does not heal a country that has been conditioned to believe its own system is always lying.

That requires accountability.
That requires truth.
That requires the uncomfortable work of democratic adulthood.

Until that happens, we remain trapped inside the psychological weather system of one deeply flawed man—still paying the price for our failure to take the danger seriously when it mattered most.

This is a mind no nation should be forced to live inside.

And yet, here we remain—still, and again.


Trump’s strategy isn’t complicated. It’s the ancient tactic of bullius shittius: overwhelm the public with so much nonsense, chaos, and contradiction that truth becomes impossible to track, outrage becomes normal, and exhaustion replaces accountability.

AKA...

1️⃣ “Flood the zone with shit”

A phrase directly attributed to Steve Bannon. The idea is overwhelm the public with so much misinformation, scandal, and outrage that truth becomes impossible to track and accountability collapses.

2️⃣ “Firehose of Falsehood”

A formal RAND Corporation term describing high-volume, rapid, repeated, shameless disinformation campaigns. Features:

  • floods information space
  • contradicts itself freely
  • prioritizes volume over credibility
  • works because it overwhelms cognition and attention

3️⃣ Gaslighting + Chaos Governance

Creating so much instability and contradiction that people doubt their own judgment and turn to the leader as the only “reliable” source.

4️⃣ Authoritarian Playbook Tradition

Variations of this tactic have been used by 20th-century propagandists and demagogues globally: normalize the abnormal through sheer repetition and speed.


Cheers! Sláinte! Na zdravie!


Monday, January 12, 2026

Electricity Is No Longer a Luxury — It’s Life Support. It’s Time America Treated It That Way.

There was a time when electricity was a convenience. That time is gone.

In 2026, electricity is heat, cooling, medicine, communication, mobility, and survival. It keeps oxygen machines running, medications refrigerated, homes livable in heat waves and winters, and families connected to work, education, and emergency services. Yet in the richest nation on Earth, people still lose power because they cannot afford it… and some die because of it.

If we accept that electricity is as essential to survival as water and emergency services, then one conclusion becomes hard to avoid:

Electricity in America must become a guaranteed right — reliable, modern, safe, and accessible to everyone.

But that promise only means something if people can actually use it safely… and our aging infrastructure simply isn’t up to the task.


Free or Guaranteed Electricity Isn’t About “Free Stuff” — It’s About Civilization

Let’s be clear: “free electricity” doesn’t mean “fantasy utopia power.” It means:

  • A baseline guarantee so no one freezes or suffocates because they missed a payment.

  • Reasonable taxation spreading cost fairly instead of crushing individuals monthly.

  • Industrial megaconsumers (like data centers and crypto operations) paying responsibly so they don’t abuse the system.

  • A stable, predictable national cost structure instead of profit-driven volatility.

Personally, many of us would gladly trade a modest, predictable tax contribution in exchange for eliminating monthly vulnerability and knowing our neighbors won’t die in the winter.

This isn’t charity. It’s structural sanity.

It would save lives, reduce poverty, lower healthcare costs, stabilize housing, and strengthen the economy. It would make America kinder, smarter, and safer.

That’s not “big government.” That’s basic governance.


But Access Alone Isn’t Enough — America’s Electrical Infrastructure Is Stuck in the Past

Millions of U.S. homes were built before modern electrical loads ever existed. Many are still running:

  • undersized breaker panels

  • outdated wiring

  • limited circuits

  • increased fire risk

Even when power is available, people literally cannot use it safely.

If a nation declares electricity an essential right, then it must also guarantee safe capacity to use it:

  • Federal and state modernization grants

  • Priority support for elderly, disabled, veterans, low-income families

  • Electric service upgrades to modern standards

  • Job creation for electricians and infrastructure workers

A humane society doesn’t say, “You can have electricity — good luck not burning your house down.”

A humane society upgrades its homes along with its policies.


And We Cannot Talk About Power Security Without Talking About Burying Power Lines

The United States is decades behind Europe in one obvious, proven modernization strategy:

Burying power lines.

Europe didn’t do it because it “looks nicer.”
They did it because it works.

Overhead power lines in the U.S. are exposed to:

  • hurricanes

  • ice storms

  • windstorms

  • falling trees

  • wildfires

  • vehicle strikes

And when they fail, Americans:

  • lose heat in winters

  • lose cooling in deadly summers

  • lose life-support equipment

  • lose food

  • lose communication

  • lose homes to fires

And sometimes… they lose their lives.

Meanwhile, underground power systems are protected from weather, reduce wildfires, prevent downed live wire deaths, and dramatically improve reliability.

Utilities argue it “costs too much.” But what is the cost of:

  • disaster response?

  • medical emergencies?

  • lost economic productivity?

  • burned towns?

  • dead citizens?

We already pay more — we just pay it in suffering, chaos, and emergency budgets instead of stable, rational investment.

If America wants to survive a century of stronger storms, hotter summers, colder winters, and wildfire threats, burying lines in vulnerable and populated regions is not a luxury.

It is national security.


When We Talk About Electricity, What We’re Really Talking About Is Dignity

Guaranteed energy means:

  • seniors don’t have to choose between heat and medication

  • families aren’t destroyed by a missed bill

  • children can study safely

  • medically vulnerable people stay alive

  • rural communities are not left behind

  • disasters aren’t automatic humanitarian crises

Modernized wiring means homes won’t burn just because life kept moving forward while infrastructure didn’t.

Buried lines mean storms stop knocking people back into the Stone Age.

And yes — we can afford it.
Europe did. Japan did. South Korea did.

America simply chooses not to.


We Deserve a Country That Works for Its People

If we truly believe electricity is essential — and we all know it is — then:

  1. Guarantee a baseline supply so no one dies because of a bill.

  2. Modernize outdated homes so electricity is safe and usable.

  3. Bury power lines so the grid is resilient, safe, and future-ready.

  4. Hold mega-corporate power consumers accountable so they do not exploit a public good.

That isn’t radical. That’s responsible.

This is what a mature nation does when it grows into its obligations.

Electricity is life support. Let’s finally treat it that way. 

So… this isn’t just about saving lives. It’s about ensuring Americans can actually live — safely, securely, and with dignity. Quality of life stuff. That takes leadership that values citizens over corporate profit, long-term planning over political survival, and compassion as a national responsibility.

Are we capable of that? Wanna find out?

Cheers! Sláinte! Na zdravie!




Friday, January 9, 2026

The New Normal: When Repetition Turns the Unthinkable Into “Everyday Reality”

There is a quiet phenomenon reshaping politics, technology, media, and even global stability. It is not a law. It is not a vote. It is not a constitutional crisis announced on television. It is something subtler, and in many ways more corrosive:

The ability to turn the outrageous into the ordinary simply by doing it often enough.

Shock fades.
Reaction weakens.
Standards collapse.
And suddenly, what should be unthinkable becomes “just how things are now.”

This is not theoretical anymore.
We are living inside it.


When Illegality Becomes a Trial Balloon — and Then Becomes Policy

In the United States we saw this transformation begin domestically. Actions that would have once triggered emergency hearings, legal interventions, and bipartisan condemnation were floated casually, repeated constantly, and eventually treated as debatable policy instead of obvious violations.

Using the military against Americans.
Sending National Guard forces into states uninvited.
Openly threatening governors.
Mocking the rule of law.
Defying court orders.
Treating constitutional restraints as annoying suggestions rather than binding law.

These are not slips of the tongue.
They are test balloons.
They are conditioning exercises.

Say it once and people are horrified.
Say it ten times and it becomes “controversial.”
Say it fifty times and it becomes “politics.”

Normalization weaponized through exhaustion.

And now something even more alarming is happening:

Donald Trump is no longer limiting that normalization of illegality, cruelty, and authoritarian impulse to American borders.

He is exporting it.


From Domestic Abuses to International Projection

The United States has always had outsized influence on the world stage. Traditionally, that influence has been (at least aspirationally) tied to democracy, law, diplomacy, and restraint.

Trump has replaced that with something else entirely.

He has begun exporting:
• his domestic lies
• his contempt for democratic constraints
• his “strongman” performance politics
• and his willingness to abuse systems simply because he can

…into international affairs.

Case in point: Venezuela.

Whether the headline is:
– threats of force
– unilateral action without transparency
– disregard for international process
– or backroom bravado wrapped in patriotic chest-beating

…it is the same behavioral pattern we watched develop domestically.

Trump says “we’ll run Venezuela.” 

Translation: Trump thinks he’ll run Venezuela. How do you know it’s either a lie or delusion? When Trump says he’ll “run” anything. 

History shows he only breaks what he touches.

Test the limits.
Ignore precedents.
Rebrand recklessness as strength.
Rely on spectacle over strategy.
Assume accountability will never arrive.

This is not diplomacy.
This is destabilization masquerading as leadership.

And it does not merely target other governments. It threatens civilians, migrants, dissidents, political prisoners, and entire populations—people who do not get a vote in our politics but pay the price for our political theater.

Authoritarian style is now an export product.

That should terrify anyone paying attention.


Meanwhile: The Technology Version of Normalized Dysfunction

Parallel to this political normalization is the technological one.

We now live in a world where systemic failure is treated as charming.

News programs lose expert guests mid-sentence because of failing remote tech.
Economists freeze on screen.
Doctors vanish during breaking news.
Connections collapse live on-air.
Networks scramble like amateur livestreamers.

And we all shrug.

This would once have been unacceptable. It would have been called embarrassing. It would have resulted in sweeping upgrades and accountability.

Now?
We laugh.
We meme it.
We accept it.

We have normalized incompetence.
We have normalized low standards.
We have normalized the idea that even institutions responsible for informing the public can be held together with duct tape and prayer.

And while that seems harmless, it isn’t.

Because when the infrastructure of reliability disappears, authority collapses with it.

And into that vacuum steps chaos.


Lower Expectations = Easier Control

There is a psychological truth at work here:

People who expect reliability, competence, legality, and stability push back when it disappears.

People who have been trained not to expect it?
They adapt downward.

They normalize failure.
They accept outrage fatigue.
They begin to believe that nothing can be better, so why fight?

That is the true danger of normalization.

Once people give up on expecting standards, they stop defending them.

And that is when powerful people stop pretending to care about limits at all.


None of This Is Accidental

“New normals” are not natural evolutions.

They are engineered.
They are repeated into existence.
They are pushed until resistance breaks.

Domestically.
Technologically.
Internationally.

We are now watching a political figure who has already conditioned a nation to tolerate behavior once considered unacceptable — now applying that same “shock until numbness” strategy beyond our borders.

That does not just reshape America.
It reshapes the world order.


Where This Leaves Us

We do not have to accept:
• domestic authoritarian trial balloons
• government by threat and intimidation
• exporting lawlessness to international policy
• media treating dysfunction as inevitable
• technology lowering standards while pretending it is progress

The unthinkable only becomes normal when enough people stop reacting.

We didn’t just normalize glitchy Zoom interviews — we’ve normalized failing tech everywhere. Cell service that drops calls. Coverage worse than countries with fewer resources. Streaming services that glitch or lock us out. 

And that’s before even getting into email phishing, fraud schemes, ransomware attacks, hospitals being held hostage, and nonstop attempts to steal money or blackmail people. We didn’t just get more relaxed — we accepted a level of dysfunction and danger we never should have.

Decades now of software being released before it was fully vetted, fully debugged, etc. AI? May help with that now. Oddly, in that it's also now arguably our greatest threat.

Individuals and systems threaten us, defraud us, break on us and, we just...shrug?

Relaxing was good. Lowering expectations this much, not so much.

The world has seen what happens when toxic capitalism, dysfunction, abuse and authoritarian behavior stops being confined and becomes contagious. 

History is not subtle about where this road leads.

The danger is not the outrageous act.
The danger is the moment society stops...flinching.

Because once that happens?
Anything can be justified.
Anywhere.

And that is when democracies, societies fail, not with a dramatic collapse…
…but with yet another mere shrug.

Interesting times people...

Cheers! Sláinte! Na zdravie!





Thursday, January 8, 2026

Trump’s “Excellent Health” and the Problem with POTUS47 Presidential Medicine

Presidential medical disclosures are always political documents. They are tightly managed, selectively released, and historically unreliable. Under Donald Trump, that credibility problem is even worse: we have a documented pattern of exaggerated claims and outright fabrication around his health, including a doctor admitting that Trump dictated his own glowing 2015–16 letter about being the “healthiest individual ever elected.” doctorzebra.com

So when MedPage Today offers a reassuring “year in review” of Trump’s health, it’s not just summarizing neutral facts. It’s amplifying a narrative built on partial, politically filtered information.

This post looks at what the MedPage piece says, and then compares it with what’s actually visible in public and in the broader reporting.


What MedPage Says

The MedPage Today article essentially makes these points:

  • Trump, nearly 80, has had two workups at Walter Reed this year (including an MRI), but nothing “concerning” was found.

  • He’s been diagnosed with chronic venous insufficiency (CVI), a common vein condition that causes leg swelling, and his hand bruising is attributed to frequent handshakes and long-term aspirin use. Reuters

  • His annual physical reportedly shows well-controlled hypertension and otherwise “excellent health.”

  • He has taken the Montreal Cognitive Assessment (MoCA) three times (2018 and twice this year) and claims perfect scores every time.

  • Two geriatric experts quoted by MedPage say that:

    • His fatigue and occasional dozing off are normal for someone his age with a heavy schedule.

    • His energy and ability to “run things on the fly” suggest preserved cognitive function.

    • They see “no evidence” of dementia based on public appearances.

  • One expert explicitly contrasts Trump favorably with Joe Biden, arguing that Biden has shown clearer attention and focus problems, while Trump has “always” been bombastic, so his behavior doesn’t look like a change.

In short: the article portrays Trump as an unusually vigorous near-octogenarian whose visible issues are routine aging, not signs of serious decline.


Problem #1: This White House Has Lied About His Health Before

The foundation is already cracked. We know Trump’s camp has falsified health information in the past:

  • Trump’s longtime physician Harold Bornstein later admitted that Trump himself dictated the famously over-the-top 2015 letter about his “astonishingly excellent” health and “extraordinary” lab results. doctorzebra.com

  • Recent White House and physician statements continue the same pattern: he is in “excellent” or “exceptional” health, with golf victories cited as evidence, and every cognitive test characterized as “perfect.” New York Post

When your baseline is fabricated press-release medicine, any article that simply builds on those releases without visible skepticism is starting from a compromised record.


Problem #2: Chronic Venous Insufficiency Is Common – But the Spin Matters

MedPage and other outlets correctly note that chronic venous insufficiency is common in older adults and often manageable with compression, leg elevation, and activity. PBS

Fair enough.

But then the White House repeatedly uses that benign diagnosis to explain away visible signs (leg swelling, bruises) while insisting Trump is otherwise in “excellent health” and not in discomfort. Reuters

Independent medical sources point out important nuances that get glossed over:

  • CVI is indeed common, but it is progressive and can lead to serious complications (ulcers, skin breakdown) if not managed well. Scientific American

  • Bruising on the hands is not a typical symptom of CVI. Experts note that it is more plausibly related to long-term high-dose aspirin and fragile skin. Scientific American

That doesn’t mean Trump is secretly dying. It does mean the “nothing to see here” tone is unwarranted, especially in light of his long-term, self-directed aspirin regimen that a cardiologist openly called “medically unsound” for someone his age. New York Post


Problem #3: Cognitive Tests as Political Theater

MedPage leans on Trump’s repeated MoCA tests and self-reported perfect scores as reassurance.

But several facts undercut that comfort:

  • The MoCA is a screening tool for cognitive impairment, not an IQ test or a demonstration of superior intellect. It’s designed to catch obvious problems, not subtle decline.

  • Trump himself routinely misrepresents it as a “very hard IQ test” in public, bragging about “acing” it and challenging critics to take it, which neurologists and reporters have repeatedly noted is a misunderstanding of what the test is. People.com

  • Repeating the same or similar cognitive screening multiple times and boasting about it is unusual behavior in itself, especially when weaponized as a political talking point.

The key point: a clean MoCA does not mean “no issues.” It just means he cleared a fairly coarse screen at the time he took it.


Problem #4: “He Looks Fine on TV” Is Not a Diagnosis

MedPage’s quoted experts are working only from public appearances. They explicitly have no access to Trump’s actual medical record or a direct exam. That already limits what they can say.

Meanwhile, a growing body of public evidence is at least concerning:

  • Trump’s speeches have drawn mainstream coverage for rambling, looping thought patterns and difficulty staying on a coherent track, with PBS noting that his rhetoric has raised serious questions about possible mental decline. PBS

  • There are multiple documented episodes of slurred speech (famously at the 2017 Jerusalem speech closing line, among others), which the White House has alternately attributed to “dry mouth” or dental issues. Quartz/ABC News

  • High-visibility gaffes (“Yo-Semites” for Yosemite, struggles with common words like “acetaminophen,” etc.) have been widely reported and analyzed, not just mocked. The Economic Times

  • In 2025 alone, major outlets have chronicled a pattern of Trump nodding off in meetings and public events, and a visible tightening of his schedule—fewer public appearances, shorter days—framed explicitly as a response to concerns about his stamina. Vanity Fair/Politico

  • One recent computational linguistics study found a notable shift in Trump’s language patterns after the 2024 shooting, suggesting a measurable cognitive change, even if not diagnostic by itself. PsyPost - Psychology News

Again: none of this proves dementia. But it absolutely contradicts the idea that there is “no evidence” of any cognitive change. There is evidence. The debate is over what it means.

At minimum, the reality is contested enough that categorical reassurance is not justified.


Problem #5: Activity Level ≠ Cognitive Health

MedPage’s experts repeatedly point to Trump’s “remarkable schedule,” travel, and ability to crash into meetings and run them as evidence that he cannot have dementia.

That is a very low bar.

  • Many people with early cognitive decline can remain highly functional in familiar routines, especially with staff support, teleprompters, and curated events.

  • Conversely, people with serious underlying conditions sometimes maintain outward productivity until they suddenly don’t. History is full of leaders whose health was far worse than the public realized while they kept up demanding schedules.

When a White House also admits it has shortened his days and reduced his visibility, “he keeps a busy schedule” becomes even weaker as a reassurance. Politico


Problem #6: The Asymmetry with Biden Coverage

One of the more striking parts of the MedPage piece is the favorable comparison to Joe Biden: Biden’s visible lapses and the disastrous debate are cited as worrisome, while Trump is portrayed as essentially unchanged.

It’s true that serious reporting has now documented a sustained and systemic effort to downplay Biden’s decline, and that his debate performance in 2024 was a genuine turning point. New York Post

But that’s exactly why Trump’s situation deserves at least the same level of scrutiny:

  • If Biden’s team’s spin on his health was rightly called out, Trump’s team’s spin—backed by an even longer record of embellished and fabricated health claims—must be interrogated just as aggressively. TIME

  • Treating Trump’s MoCA brags and glowing Walter Reed summaries as more trustworthy, when we already know some past health letters were literally dictated by him, is indefensible.

You don’t fix one partisan health cover-up by accepting a different partisan health narrative at face value.


So What Do We Actually Know?

Putting it all together:

  • Trump has a real, common condition (chronic venous insufficiency) that explains some visible leg swelling but not all of his symptoms. PBS/Scientific American

  • He has a long-term, unusually high-dose aspirin habit likely contributing to bruising, which experts have criticized as bad practice for a man his age. New York Post

  • He has repeatedly taken a basic cognitive screen and uses it as a political prop, while mischaracterizing what it measures. New York Post

  • There is abundant public footage and reporting of slurred speech, odd phrasing, confusion, and dozing, as well as a visible tightening of his schedule—enough to make concern reasonable, even if we can’t diagnose him from afar. TIME/PBS/Quartz

  • His health disclosures come from a political operation with a proven track record of exaggeration and dishonesty around his medical status. doctorzebra.com/The Guardian

Given that, the cautious, reality-based conclusion is:

We do not have enough reliable information to say Trump is either “fine” or “failing.” What we do have is enough contradictory evidence, and enough reason to distrust official spin, that reassuring profiles like MedPage’s should be read as glosses on a political narrative — not as medical truth.

If the press has finally learned to be skeptical of sanitized health stories about one president, it has to apply that lesson consistently. The public deserves honest, critical coverage of Trump’s health too, not just another round of “perfect exam, perfect test” headlines that we’ve seen before and already know we cannot simply take at face value.

Since we cannot go off of officially supplied medical information about our president, we have to look at it in the face of publicly available observation and information.

Since we cannot rely on officially supplied medical information about our president—given its history of political filtering, exaggeration, and selective disclosure—we are left to assess his health through publicly observable behavior, credible reporting, and independently verifiable information. 

That does not mean diagnosing from afar; it means refusing to accept curated narratives at face value and acknowledging that transparency, accountability, and honesty matter when a head of state’s capacity to serve is at stake.

When we step back and look only at what has been plainly visible — Trump’s repeated slurred speech, erratic and looping delivery, moments of confusion, physical stiffness and swelling, public episodes of fatigue, and his own fixation on constantly “proving” his cognitive strength — the picture is not reassuring. 

Without assigning a diagnosis or predicting outcomes, a reasonable conclusion is unavoidable: his health is not the picture of effortless vigor his team insists it is, and there are legitimate signs of decline that deserve honest scrutiny rather than spin. 

In a democracy, the public has the right to clear, truthful information about the condition of the person seeking to wield extraordinary power, and the gap between Trump’s rhetoric and observable reality remains deeply concerning.

Cheers! Sláinte! Na zdravie!




Wednesday, January 7, 2026

A Book I Couldn’t Finish – And How It Taught Me About Truth, Authority, and Conspiracy Thinking

I was raised with a deep respect for books. That came from my grandmother, who believed that reading wasn’t just entertainment; but was also a moral act. 

She told me early on: 

“Before you start a book, consider it carefully, because you are committing to finish it.”

And I honored that. Through a lifetime of reading far above average, I’ve left only a handful of books in my lifetime, unfinished. Literally, four or five. When I do, it isn’t casual. It means a trust has been broken.

One of those rare unfinished books was General William Westmoreland’s memoir, A Soldier Reports, written after his military career to explain, justify, and defend his role in the Vietnam War. When I picked it up in the late 1970s, I fully intended to finish it. I respected the office, the burden of command, the enormity of history pressing down on him. I gave him enormous leeway. I was open to nuance, rationalization, defensiveness. Trauma does that to a writer; I understood.

But as I read deeper, something in my mind shifted.

It wasn’t that I disagreed with him. Disagreement is natural. It wasn’t even that he tried to justify his choices; every leader does that to some extent. What disturbed me, and ultimately stopped me, was when his narrative drifted away from reality itself.

As I'm writing this I'm watching a documentary on Netflix, COVER-UP.  I'm about 30 minutes into it and the reporter says: "The whole army ran on body count. You measure success by how many kills you have. Westmoreland needed numbers. And so how do you get the kind of body count you want? You had to go into places like My-Lai and tell them that everybody there is a Viet Cong. Kill everybody."

That's, madness.

He's talking about the My-Lai Massacre incident where soldier slaughter an entire village of civilians, including children. I remember when it happened and it had massive news coverage. But not until this journalist tracked the story down. Fascinating documentary so far. 

I had read widely. Since I was young, and I was at the time in the USAF with a secret security clearance. I knew the historical record, the reporting, the complexities, the moral ambiguities. Yet near the latter part of the book, I watched Westmoreland confidently build a world where facts bent to ideology, where uncomfortable truths were replaced with explanatory fantasies, where victory had been possible if only others hadn’t betrayed it, misunderstood it, distorted it. It wasn’t analysis anymore; it was an alternate psychological universe. Even in my early 20s I could recognize something wrong in a very well-seasoned soldier, and a General, with war experience, had jumped the shark.

And that was when I learned something essential about conspiracy thinking.

For notes on Conspiracy Theories:

Guide to researching conspiracy theories and mystery topics (University of Minnesota LibGuide)

For more approachable, practical guidance for (easy to use for a general audience):

PBS NewsHour Classroom: Conspiracy Theory and misinformation resources

It does not always come from the fringe. It does not always look like insanity. Sometimes it comes dressed in medals, authority, dignity, reputation, and the steady voice of a man who believes completely in his own story. Sometimes it comes not from delusion, but from the human need to protect pride, identity, ego, and worldview from collapse. Sometimes it isn’t born of madness at all, but of refusal.

That realization stayed with me. I didn’t finish the book. That decision wasn’t rebellion against authority; it was loyalty to reality.

I also didn't buy what he was selling. In researching his beliefs I came across the concept of conspiracy theory and rather than leap right down into that rabbit hole of a conspiracy itself, I studied the concept of conspiracy theory itself. And that, is the primary difference I see between those seemingly inured to falling victim to it and so many misguided conspiracy theorists, today. 

Beyond knowledge and critical thinking, what really protects people from falling into conspiracy belief is the human foundation beneath their thinking. People who feel connected to real communities, who have purpose, emotional resilience, and a sense of belonging grounded in everyday life are far less likely to need conspiratorial narratives to make sense of the world. 

Conspiracies thrive where trust collapses, where loneliness or alienation take hold, and where ego needs validation through “secret truth” identities. Humility, the ability to tolerate uncertainty, engagement with art and meaningful work, exposure to different people and ideas—these create an anchor in lived reality. When our emotional, social, and existential needs are met in healthy ways, the seductive pull of grand, simplifying falsehoods loses much of its power.

And it is important to acknowledge something honestly: conspiracies do exist. History has proven that powerful people and institutions sometimes lie, coordinate in secret, and abuse authority. But real conspiracies are rarely the omnipotent, world-controlling forces many people imagine. They tend to be smaller, messier, driven by greed, incompetence, or short-term advantage, and they almost always collapse eventually. 

Secrets leak. People talk. Evidence surfaces. The larger and more elaborate a supposed conspiracy is, the less likely it is to survive reality. Healthy skepticism means questioning power while remaining grounded in evidence, not surrendering to fantasy.

Do not buy into a conspiracy until you understand where it came from, what it is actually claiming, and what you are really embracing beyond its surface idea. Many of these narratives are interconnected; one belief leads to another, and before you realize it, you are deep in a rabbit hole of manufactured nonsense. That is how we ended up with Trumpism, MaGA culture, and a whole ecosystem of unstable, shape-shifting “belief communities” built on anything but reality.

From Catholicism to Critical Reverence

I grew up Catholic. I served as head altar boy. I lived inside ritual, authority, certainty, and sacred structures. Eventually, I stepped away from that faith — not out of bitterness, but because my relationship to truth demanded it. I found myself resonating more with a Buddhist orientation toward life. Not ritual. Not cosmology. Not metaphysics. But clarity. Awareness. Responsibility for one’s own mind. A quiet reverence for reality.

Yet I never lost the sense of reverence itself. It didn’t disappear; it transformed.

Today, I hold books and musical instruments in a near-sacred category — not religiously sacred, but existentially meaningful. They represent the best of human engagement with the world.

Books are minds speaking across time. They demand honesty. They deserve sincerity. They are not disposable. Reading is an ethical act.

Musical instruments are vessels of human expression. They require care, discipline, devotion, humility. You don’t treat a violin or a guitar like a tool. You treat it like a responsibility — a conduit to something deeply human.

I don’t bow to these things. I respect them.


Reality as a Moral Commitment

In my life, I have come to believe this:
Reality deserves loyalty.

Not institutions. Not ideologies. Not powerful men writing history in their own image. A person can be decorated, intelligent, influential, and still build castles out of narrative rather than truth. Authority does not guarantee accuracy. Sincerity does not guarantee honesty.

That Westmoreland book was where this lesson crystallized for me.

It taught me that conspiracy thinking is sometimes just wounded certainty evolving into mythology. It showed me that some narratives aren’t created to illuminate the world, but to protect the self. It reminded me that reverence should never be for image or status — only for truth, creation, and honest engagement with life.

And it reminded me of my grandmother’s wisdom. Consider a book before you start it. Commit to finishing it. But if finishing it requires betraying reality, then set it down. Respect isn’t obedience; sometimes it is knowing when to walk away.

That book tried to ask me for reverence without truth.
And I couldn’t give it.

Instead, I saved my reverence for the things that deserve it:
facts, reality, music, literature, human integrity… and the lifelong discipline of staying awake to what is real.