It struck me—like a whisper sliding through the ribs of silence—we don’t just have thoughts. We hear them. As if something is speaking in that cavern behind our eyes. Our own voice, yes, but distant. Not quite tethered. Like it came from a room down the hall that shouldn’t exist.
That alone might explain God.
Not the God of stained glass and parental commandments. I mean the idea—older than names, older than fire—of something vast and watching. The invisible presence in the trees, in the dark, in the folds of our own breath. We think we looked out and found God. But what if the first real encounter was inward? What if the divine began not in the heavens but in the hollow theater of the human skull?
Because if you sit long enough with your own mind, if you listen without distraction, the space inside doesn’t feel small. It expands. It echoes. It responds. We tell ourselves this is normal—this inner narrator, this unseen scribe. But anyone with even a cracked sense of self knows how strange it really is. Thoughts appear fully formed, dressed in voice and timing. Insights arrive like gifts from behind the curtain. Sometimes they shout. Sometimes they whisper. Sometimes they warn.
That eerie duality—of being both the speaker and the spoken-to—might be the oldest haunting we know. Before we carved gods into stone or sketched stars into myths, we already had a voice in our heads. It wasn’t always kind. It wasn’t always sane. But it was there. And when the dark pressed in at the edges of the firelight, what else could it have been but something more?
Maybe that was the first altar: the quiet inner chamber of thought, echoing with something too complex, too alien to be merely "me."
It’s not hard to see the roots of cosmic horror in that. The unknowable pressing in—not from galaxies far beyond, but from within the skull. A presence that isn’t separate from us, but generated by us. Or worse, residing in us. An invader mistaken for a conscience. A parasite that speaks in familiar tones. The divine not as savior, but as stowaway.
Perhaps God was never in the sky. Perhaps the real abyss is between our thoughts.
And many of us have been praying into it ever since.
But perhaps there are no gods at all—only the mind, inventing echoes to fill the silence. Maybe the divine is merely the byproduct of our terror at being alone in the dark. Something banal, draped in the sacred. Something hollow we mistook for holy, going all the way back to when we clung to branches in the blackness of a moonless night, staring into the void between trees and praying—not that something was out there, but that if there was, it meant us no harm.
Much of this line of thought has echoed through my own writing in speculative fiction and horror. The idea that what we fear most might not be what lies beyond us, but what originates within—that the divine, the monstrous, and the imagined might all share a single root in the architecture of our minds.
It's a rich, unsettling territory I've returned to again and again: the hollow space we fill with gods, ghosts, and meaning, just to silence the echo.
Compiled with aid of ChatGPT
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